活力青年营

要忙的总算忙完了。。。

曾经一直在问自己参与这次的生活营是不是错误的选择？？

是自己太得空才去参一脚的，自找苦吃？？

从一开始就看见他们吵吵闹闹的，到了最后还是在争，真的把我这个局外人吓倒了。。

谁是谁非我真的不知道，但我真的很想改变他们的处事态度。。。

他们有些不够经验，不够理智，不够责任感，不够果断，不合作，太傲慢，年纪太小，才造成这样的局面！！大家还不清楚自己的使命在哪？？

无论如何希望他们能从这次的生活营中成长。。

一直都不能释怀直到生活营的最后一天我都还在思考着。

可能是自己的要求太高了，从小到大参加及搞了无数的生活营，这一次可以算是最差的一次，每一个环节在别人眼中看来是进行到蛮顺利的，但对我来说却是相反的。

一直一直的在想，看到这样的场面，担当最后一天司仪的我真有想过随随便便的乱讲就算了。。

还好最后终于想通了，很多东西是不能拿来作比较的。。。

营员素质的问题是最头痛的问题，好的在课业方面真的一级棒，坏的就真的坏到不行。。

对这样的营员我一直存有偏见，对他们感到很反感，觉得他们无药可救了。

我知道我不应有这样的想法，人总有改变的一天，就看他们的造化了，是变好？还是变得更坏？

但真心希望他们能拥有真确的信仰，跟着指导，战胜自己，走向幸福的道路。。。

看到伟宏就是很好的例子，他的却变很多，我应该把从前的他从我的脑海抹走，从新认识他了。

虽然搞生活营的过程并不是很顺利，发生一大堆的争执，但青年部们的坚持，最终完成了生活营，为第八本部做出了很大的突破。第八本部的青年部们为广布踏出了第一部是值得鼓舞的。

所以，很庆幸的自己能参与，一起见证这历史性的一刻，至少我的假期并没有白过。。

也认识了一些可爱的朋友，一起并肩为广布作战的朋友。。

这两天一夜的活力青年营的顺利完成并不代表一切结束，然而却代表着第八本部的每一位为广布的开始。希望第八本部能通过对话去传达师匠的信息，把幸福的种子撒播出去。

Genting Trip + Family Gathering

Again i went to genting highland...a place i were so common in....the day i had waited for so long since sem break started...coz i got no place to go n just stayed in the house everyday...so so so bored...everyone is travelling to pulau langkawi, pulau redang, n other places.

i were quite excited like a little child..haha...

anyway, this time would be different one...

i went to casino...wahahaha...n yet the police could not chase me out anymore...wahaha...

i never know that i look so young wor...or i look like

malay??

the police double checking my ID card n yet still dun believe that i ady reached the age to gamble..

wakakakaka....feeling so great!!!

how nice my trip???dun knw...

let the photos proof everything...hehe

my grandpa...he is going to celebrate his 80 birthday...

a nice place which i never been to though i visit to genting every year..

god bless my grandpa...

my cousin n my little bro....they are in the same age...

family photo...but some ppl are missing...hehe....dun knw where were they going....

wat were they doing???.......

my grandma (on the left) also joined us in the playground...

致Acad M的朋友们~~

真的感到很高兴能在Acad M活动。。
是你们让我从新回到御本尊的怀抱。。。
我忘了自己几时开始没有再出来学会活动。。
也不记得昔加末的学会有些什么活动。。

直到我进了马大。。。
sem 1 时，参了太多uni的活动。。
然后常常用为了uni活动很忙，拼命找借口推掉要出来学会活动的心。。
真对不起常常叫我出来活动的你们。。。
但现在已经了解到时间是由自己来安排的。。。
只要有那颗心在，什么事都能迎刃而解的。。。
御本尊会给以我们智慧去安排这一切。。。

为什么现在我选择在学会活动？
因为我真的发现到在学会活动和在外面的活动真的是很不一样。。
至少我们是拥有同一颗热忱的心去付出。。。
而并不是为了个人利益而争得面红耳赤。。。
所以我对自己说过我一定要把握每一次在学会活动的时候。。。
尽量去参与每一个学会活动。。。

kampar的交流会让我获益不浅。。。
至少我知道什么是立正安国论。。。只有用对话才能去改变。。。
创价学会的朋友们真是了不起。。。至少大家是心平气和的坐下来谈如何去改变，如何让这个社会更加和平。。如何让大家更加幸福。。
而不像外面的一些人为了权力而吵来吵去。。争个没完没了。。

我们有我们自己的使命。。。
我们要去完成自己的使命。。。

感谢御本尊让我回到您的怀抱。。。
我不会再与您分开。。

最后，要以大家分享一首歌“幸福的道路”。。
的却是一首很好听及很有意义的歌。。。

你陪着我成长，
好让我 看到属于我的光芒，
我永远不会忘记，请你相信，
所以我献身于广布，
要和你跟随着先生的脚步，
朝向前方的光芒，就是幸福的道路。

sad...

i sat for my ODE paper today...
i dun knw wat had happened to me...
i can't answer the 3rd question???
but why there are only 3 questions??
and each question cost me 20 marks...
once i walked out BP..i knw i lost 20 marks dy...

i was so DOWN!!!

why i made my mind so complicated...??
such an easy question,but i dun knw how to do??
who controlled my mind???

frankly, i really worked hard for tis course..
since i failed the mid sem test...
i studied hard for it...
i did a lot of past year questions...
n i knw how to do the past year questions...
i read the notes over n over again...
i made my own notes...
but yet i knw i will fail tis course finally...
damn...
wat's wrong with me???

so,it was reasonable i felt so sad for the whole day...
i gv up to study the nex paper...
i played comp games...
i slept...
n i did sth crazy...
i walked to varsity lake at the dark nite...
i cried...

who can help me???
nobody....

thx to those who consoled me...n accompanied me...n listened to me...

Happy 21st Birthday~~~

thanks meishi n yuemin to accompany me to go shopping today...
but pls laa..next time dun leave me alone at the shopping centre...
i really dun knw wat to do...wat i did was just walked..walked n walked in the shopping centre...

at nite...i was staying in the room alone...
lastly saier asked me to go for supper...
actually felt quite dissapointed when heard the birthday song...the birthday song which is sang to celebrate jun's birthday...
i really tot tat u all hd forgotten my birthday...
till i saw ah chai n keeyeong hold a little cake n sang birthday song to me...then i received gift...
i tot tat's all n it came to the end of my birthday celebration...
but no..i was totally wrong...it was just started...
oh my god...i was dumped in the kolam...
n they helped me to make up..n made me look so ugly..sob...
but yet they really made me had a wonderful + unforgetable birthday in my life...
really thanx...
n thanx for giving lots presents...
for me,it were not just gift..it mean a lots to me...
friendship last for ever...

Let's have a test....

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/aspx

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Feeling after the most unique MKC~~

遗憾。。。带着期望。。却让我失望。。。
鼓，差一点就没得打。。真的伤心。。
谢谢学长学姐们在我要放弃的时候一直在我耳边鼓励。。我才有继续撑下去的勇气。。
说真的，我真的撑到很辛苦。。。
对。。表演过后真的很空虚。。脑袋真的是一片空白的。。
以为自己会哭的。。哈。。可是并没有。。

frankly,wat's a mix feeling i had after MKC..
yup..it cant be denied tat i regretted bcoz of the mishap..
i were thinking tat why raining all the time???if no rain,what will happen next?will the whole MKC in plan??everything will be better with the technical setting??there will be best ever perfomances with better lighting n audio??(sob)

but i knew no more 'if' here,it was a fate n we need to accept it..well..let bygone be bygone..it was not our false,it was just an unexpected mishap...to sum it all up,everyone did a great job yesterday nite!!!(i mean all seniors n juniors)....MKC really hoseh!!!

and i was so so sooooooooo touching yesterday...
i really could see the togetherness...not only among CC members but Zabahan...thx for helping us..thx for those alway offer himself to help to move things fr balai zaba to dewan nucleus..
thx a lots...and thx for other ethnic group 's frenz who gave me respond all the time while waiting for our frens to set up n prepare evrything for drama...at least u all let me knw tat i was not alone tat time...so pity me n serpin..i was hardly crack my mind to find out sum ideaS to entertain u all...THX A LOTS....

well..sth wanna mention here, my dear MKC director,WEI XIANG,i respect u..salute u..even though u did uncountable mistakes during the speech..but u still keep on talking..ur spirit,ur attitude,for sure,i respect u man...i was so touching by u man...almost cry at tat time lor...

abt ZHAO KE, i saw the great improvement in urself...well done..i knew u can do it...n 28th of Feb,MKC nite,u proved it to everyone...yes..good job man..be confident in urself laa....

abt the other perfomances, everyone was putting his/her effort to do the best he/she can...

SHIN YEN roomate,respect u also...continue to dance although u had ald injured...
dear mek,u afraid me...so worry abt u..

AMY n KAICHUR,take care of urself also rr...

abt the seniors, u all did a very good n efficient job man...helped us to do everything, till we dun knw wat should we do anymore...

XUE CHEN, u really has a incredible mind ler...huh~~

abt my coach,GUORONG n tutors,ROGER n TENGYI , u all are excellent!!!helped us to settle the drums perfomance...i knw u wont make us n urself disappointed de...great!!

for those i hvn mentioned,well done n good job man...

MKC ~~~~

28th of FEB (Saturday)

马大第七宿舍中华文化之夜，我们期待已久的日子终于来临了。

我答应了早上七点半搬鼓，八点练习，我做到了，可是你们为什么迟到？还是谢谢早到的朋友们(jean wei, kaiwen, jinxin n joan)。对不起，我对brothers们发脾气了，我知道大家都很累了，我不应该对你们发脾气，谢谢你们的体谅。
谢谢大家的帮忙让我们很快的把事情做好，然后开始练习。
大家的表现真的很好了，希望我们今晚能发挥得更好，鼓队加油，要相信我们的努力是值得的。

午餐后，肚子开始感到不舒服，我想可能是喝太多咖啡了再加上少睡觉。明知道自己不能喝咖啡，可是爱喝咖啡的我却一口气喝了十杯，人就是这么的犯贱。可恶的感觉，总是要作呕。
朋友们，想劝你们要学会好好照顾自己哦，因为在外病了没有人会关心你，照顾你，可怜你，同情你的。。。好好保重哦。。。
可是，有时候也会有好人来帮你一把的。谢谢你啦，思彬，慧慧和顺财。

呕过了，哭过了，感觉好多了。我可以继续做我还未完成的事了。
天气热到我无法睁开我的眼睛，讨厌阴晴不定的天气。

谢谢Roger tutor帮我解决搬鼓的事，这样我就少烦一件事了。

刚才那么热，为什么你那么快就变脸？
求你啦，给我一个好天气啦。

你毫不留情，就这样下起了雨，是因为我今天还没唱题吗？？
我不是爱哭包，我没哭，只是流泪而以啦。

刚才因为很紧张的搬鼓，差一点从白屋滚下来，还好思彬推了一把。谢啦。

好，我决定回房唱题和准备。
过后雨还是一直下，什么也做不到，只好傻傻的等雨停。
我相信雨一定会停，你不可能那么狠心让我们辛辛苦苦筹备了那么久的东西给毁了。
所以我一直保持晴朗的心情，相信天气也会跟着晴朗起来的。

果然你没有让我失望，雨真的是慢慢的停了。
大家的心也快乐了起来，笑容也开始挂在每个人的脸上。
大家开始抹干场地，人也陆陆续续的来了，大家也越来越就紧张了。

听着司仪欢迎贵宾的到来，掌声也跟着响起。那一刻是多么的感动。
听着筹委会主席致词时，我在想着一切的表演很快就要开始了，很快很快。。
伟翔的华语讲得不好，可是勇气可嘉，真是让人佩服，虽然讲得很好笑，可是听起来却是令人感动的。

开幕过后就到我们出场了，台下一阵喧哗，灯光亮到我看不见人海，很想看看到底有多少人来捧场咯。
过后就到扯铃表演，很想知道她们表演到如何，从来就没有真正的欣赏过每一个表演。

思彬出场过后就是到我出场了，突然听见思彬说了一句：请大家移到我们的dewan makan。
当时的我还不知道雨神已来访，我还真的在台上呆了一会儿才回过神来。
真是不敢相信眼前的一切，也不想接受。怎么办？
眼泪又要开始掉了，真不挣气。
我们要如何继续呢？鼓队怎么办？二十四节令鼓要怎么表演？我的脑一直都在想着鼓。。
一定要想个办法，不能让我们的努力白费的。

到了dewan nukleus, 我真的没有继续下去的勇气，还好有一直有seniors在鼓励着，谢啦，cc head叫我不要放弃打鼓，一定会想办法让我们打的。还有学谦的支持，我才会一直撑下去。还有思彬，谢谢你提醒了我当时不是泄气的时候，接下去要做的是把任务完成，把其余的表演呈现出来。

在他们setup 一切的时候，我们必须想办法撑场咯。
那短短的半个小时多是难熬的，我们真的是很懊恼，为什么我们在说话时都没有人在给反应呢？就连自己的seniors都是这样。还好有有一群支持我们的友族朋友们给与热烈的响应。谢谢你们，我真的很感动，感激不尽。
还有一些热心的友族朋友帮忙把东西从balai zaba搬到 dewan nukleus。谢啦。

很快的一切都setup好啦。我们的戏剧正式开始。
一切是多么的顺利，只是麦克风有些问题。
舞蹈，华乐，相声等一切都很好，大家辛苦了。
只是后台真是很乱，学谦真是了不起，少了你不知会发生什么事咯。

戏剧完毕过后就是二十四节令鼓，我连喘一口气都来不及就要开始打鼓。
当时真的很紧张，头脑还很乱，乱到不能集中精神，好害怕等等会打错害了大家。
最后逼自己冷静下来，集中和专心的打。

打完的那一刻，我的脑就是空白的。什么都没想了。
只看见3rd years seniors都在哭，是高兴？兴奋？还是感动？
我不知道。
2nd years seniors对我说：了不起，你们打得比我们还要好！！
我在想：真的吗？不要安慰我哦~~

过后发生什么事我真的管不了啦，只觉得：哈~~我们准备了五个月的中华文化之夜就在这雨夜画上了句号。我接下来该做什么呢？大家都在很开心的拍照，可我一点都提不起劲来，闷闷的坐着，结果我没拍到照留念，好后悔。为什么我当时会有那种感觉？很空白！很空虚！说不出个所以来。。。

泪又在开始流了。糟糕。

One day to go~~~~~

27th of FEB (FRIDAY)

oohhh...my hp rang at abt 730am...ooohhh...my dabian lian called me..shit...
i wanted to sleep lagi...
oohhh..somebody knocked my door...ooohhh...zhongwen came n woke me up....
oohhh..my hp rang again....ooohh...ivan called me....

ok..fine..i woke up..ok..i went to the practice..ok...
roger,i really dun wan to wake up de...but i hv no choice..everyone is missing me so much...
damn..it was raining laaa....
after i had my breakfast, we started to cut the clothes n settle our scarft n others....

since it was still raining..everyone went bec to their room...
except me, ahcai, ah fook, n serpin...still playing v the yellow stupid clothes...haa...

well..we planned to practice at 1230pm...
but sigh..i forgot today is friday..i really dun knw their sembahyang time for today is so long..
we only manage to practice once..be4 somebody stopped us bcoz of the curfew...

abt 230pm we continue our practice due to the good weather...
at 330pm..keeyong stopped us n asked us to go for the rehearsal...

everything is well running during the rehearsal...good job...
hope everyone could maintain laaa...jia you...

damn tired ald...same as yesterday...2am still got band practice lagi..

but i promised melissa n sangitha that i sure will go n support the MKI, hehe..so i sacrifice my sleeping time to support them ooo...
so funny..i dun understand their language at all...
haiz...i should learn other races' language de...
but their dances were so powerful n energetic...i felt like wanna dance together v them ald..
good job frenz...

at abt 1230pm...so sorry yaa..i was so tired ady...i cant stand anymore..i went to meishi's room n slept lor..till hooi hooi wake me up is already 2am lor...sorry for not helping to set up deco wor...
i dun knw i will over sleep wor..

after practice the huoyuanjia for 1.++ hour....they started to practice qinghuachi...
then i went to help ah kent to light up the lanterns lor...
damn...i got electric shock twice...
the first shock was a small matter...
the 2nd shock..ohh my god..my whole left arm lull...

but wat i can confirm is ah kent shout louder than me when he got electric shock..haha..
he only had the palm lull...but shout like the whole body kena electric shock...huh~~afraid me..

again..today i slept at 530am...i enjoyed the time with u all to set up the deco then...
haha...
suprisingly shinyen wake up ady to practice...
the dancers n 'cheling' were so hardworking....
salute u all...

Sleepy~~~

26th of FEB (Thursday)

today is MKM a.s.a Malam Kebudayaan Melayu...

i planned to go n support our malays frenz tonite..but i was informed tat band members nid to go practice at 1130pm...huh~~my tough life is started...

so sorry for not going to support....but my heart is alway supporting u all de...
so pls let me sleep for a while...
after slept for one hour,shin yen woke me up n asked to go to the practice...
i waited for so long..it seems nobody talking abt practice..i was so sien ald...
but still waiting there...later js knw fr calvin tat the practice time has been changed to 2am...
i was like oooohhhhh,could u pls inform me earlier??i wanna sleep for a while...luckily i dun get angry with anyone..i understand u all...no worries...

so i went bec to my room n continue sleeping..haha..
wah...practice at 2am ler...wat a new experience ler tat i never hd before n will not have in the future...thx for let me has such a good experience...

i quite worry tat we will kena complain lagi...
actually im not worry abt us but eric,ah pang, hongsing n ah yap...
really felt sorry to u all...
i knw everyone is complaining to u all..
n thx for settle everything for me...

well..we ended our practice at 530am...
i hv to sleep lor...
even though three of us can skip the morning slot of practice...
but i think i wont have enough sleep de laa..

Thx Jiao Lian

Meyi…thx for supporting my decision n encourage me not to gv up…

Serpin…thx rr…u r the one who sms me n encourage me not to gv up…
But sorry for making u disappointed in tis morning n afternoon practice…
I dun mean to hurt u…

Keeyong…thx for the meaningful mesej…

Papa…thx also…after chatting v u tat nite..i knw I wont gv up de…as wat u said, I hd worked so hard for it..still left only few days…everything will be fine after tis few days….

Chong heng-thx also rr…I knw prinsip cant earn money laaa…I dun care abt prinsip anymore…it’s all abt myself laa…

Lastly-special thx to my dear jiao lian…
I was ashamed to see act…but no choice…we met at IS is all bcoz fate…
I dunno wat had u heard… U r so understanding… u never ask me for the reason for not attending the morning n afternoon practice…
but u jst only ask abt the drumsticks…n asked me to have a rest…

I still remembered tat I asked u tat : r u sure tat I still will help them to buy the drumsticks n evrythings???
Ur ans is : yes, sure u will…confirm…

Thx for the ans…bcoz of the ans…I decided to return bec to the team…no matter wat…I will be bec…I wont make everyone who care abt me disappointed…thx you very much…thx for so confident n believe in me…

yes…I was so gila abt drums(meishi n yuemin knw abt tis)
Even I din go for the practice, but I still keep on asking hooihooi n haocheak tat wat had happened during the practice…still thinking of drums every single minutes…

Well..i will tell u the reason I get angry tat day if u want 2 knw…

Tired + BAD + Unlucky + SAD + Disappointed + Stupid

I wake up very early in the morning today…
I manage to hv my breakfast n also dapao breakfast for shinyen..

After tat..i quickly go bec to my room to rush my presentation slides…
I was so bad..today is the evaluation day for GTEE 1104…it is 30% of tis course…
But I hvn started to do my slides…it’s all my bad…

Luckily I manage to finish it b4 1pm..when I want to hv my lunch at dewan makan,my laptop suddenly switch off itself…damn…@#$%^^&*…
I quickly restart my laptop,luckily it autosave ald…huh~~~sweating at tat time…
So, I keep on doing my slides, inserting some pictures n effects to my slide till I miss the lunch…

Almost to 3pm..meishi n I quickly rush to the ODE tutorial…we were late…but Mr Kuru din say anything yet…we past our one hour tutorial by doing nth..haha..

After that, we moved KDK to continue doing slides n prepare for the test later…

Bcoz our class got so many ppl…the evaluation took us more than 3 hours lor…
So we finished our class at 815pm…I immediately rush bec to college coz I got drums practice at 830pm…reached college at 830pm..

After change my cloth, I rush to balai zaba as fast as I can…I miss my dinner again..
But still I were late to the practice 5 minutes…there r only 5 ppl there…(jinxin,joan,kaiwen,mabel n zhongwen)..thx for coming so early..
I was so blur tat time…somebody told me tat coach n tutors were there ald…but I really couldn’t see anyone in dark…I dunno wat happen to my eyes…act everything I saw was blur images…

Coach n tutors left 6 of us without saying anything..question mark??

Everyone came at 9pm..we moved our drums to tennis court, n started to practice..
And I went to lobby to find coach n tutors..tengyi told me guorong get angry ald..i was shivering tat time..i wondered why always me kena???really wat the…..

Well..later I saw the most terrible things…they keep on scolding..keeping on saying rude words..OMG…but it’s ok…I understand ur feeling de…

Me myself also get angry then…there r still got some selfish ppl there…wat a discussion???for wat???get no result discussion????

I was so so so bad temper. someone made me so angry but nobody support me tat time…u r not layak to say such thing to me!!well I bear him…I told some of them I will quit the team…I was so stupid for saying so stupid word…I was so stupid to get angry v such ppl..it’s not worth at all…

huh~~~

thx god...today is not the MKC nite..luckily MKC has changed the date to 28th of Feb...
it was raining cat n dog...huh~~terrible~~~i could not imagine tat if today were MKC..wat will happen???

Less rehearsal..
Deco part hvn done...
No booklet....
Invitation cards hvn sent out....
No VIP....
Gimik hvn done...
dancers hvn practice for their 2nd dance..
Drama still not hv full rehearsal...
No background music...
No multimedia...
No lighting n audio...
Acher never practice for their part...
No drums....
No drumsticks....
the drums perfomance still not satisfy...
No audiences....

huh~~a lot of things hvn done....
thx god...today is not MKC...
today is only rehearsal...
we still have one week time to prepare for all those things...
hey ppl....let's jia you together....gambateh...

Sorry...

this is the 1st time i went to studio....
thx for giving me tis chance...

but i was so scared to co-operate v u all...
since u all r so expert in music..i was js like a beginner...
knw nth abt music...even sometime played the wrong tempo...
so sorry that i spoilt the songs rr....
make u all nid to repeat n repeat to play the song again n again...
so sorry....
i really dun knw abt music though i luv to listen songs...

i could not relax myself act since u all keep on asking us to relax n enjoy the time in the studio...

thx guorong n tengyi who guide us to play the songs...

thx lesley, ming cher, kesin, n jun who alway encourage us...n never blame me for playing such a lousy music...huh~~~

thx whoever support us all the time...

Deep Blue Sunday~~~Special Sharing session

we have drums practice like usual...
i woke up at 8am in the morning..ooo...after i hd my breakfast..went to balai zaba like usual...
some ppl still late to the practice like usual...everything like usual...
till the end of the morning slot...coach suddenly asked me to make sure everyone to come to practice in the afternoon slot...

i wondered why...
but then i forgot what i hd done fr 12pm till 2pm...
i think i was doing my hubungan etnik slide tat time laa...

it came to the time 2pm...
everyone came....coach came....tutors came...full attendance...
but sth made me so curious...why suddenly got so many seniors came???they knw sth will happen,izzit????

all rite...coach started to talk...
everyone was looking at us...
i hate such atmosphere...so serious...
of course they were talking abt sth serious ..
they said tat we dun respect them…huh~~~(when rr??where got??big question mark in my mind??)..but later I discovered sth unexpected…n I realise y they want to hv such a special sharing session…

all rite..everyone was starting to talk....
some even started to argue..luckily no quarreling...

i really dun wan to talk laaa...bcoz i was thinking tat even i voiced out..they also wont change de….
but i knw someone really wish tat i will talk lor...no worries..i wont make u disappointed de...since u r so so sooo supporting me from the beginning till now....really luv u laa...sometime really felt sorry to u, get angry v u, being not polite to u...i knw i was so childish...thx for understanding me n still giving support to me...u really pandai psycho lor...haha...

damn...once i started to talk..the atmosphere was so quiet...
i was so useless...talked not even one sentence n my tears started to drop down...
oh my god...i cried till non stop..i wondered how can i continue to talk ler..
i took quite a long time to calm down n continue to talk...funny...

since then...i was called 'ai ku bao' by bro...shit...
tell u all rr...7th CC really dun hv secret de ler...the news spread very fast till everyone knw tat i cried on tat day...oohhh...no face ald...
somebody buy me a mask??? i want a mask.....

Happy Valentine day!!

wahaha...dun expect anything will happen to me today...
it's nth happen ok...
sorry for making u all disappointed...hehe...

well..but i got received some dedications wor...

thx for those who dedicate bear n roses to me...

1stly...thx to my ex-4am club president-Mr Gregory...thx for giving me 3 beautiful roses...
2ndly...thx to my lovely papa-Mr Pang Kim Choon...thx for giving me sweet chocolates...
3rd...thx to my best ever jiao lian- Mr Jong Kuet Yong...thx for giving ur roomate-Bear..haha
4th...thx to my suigong-Mr Christopher..thx for giving me a lovely bear bear also...
lastly...thx to my 'da bian lian'- Mr Quek Ser Pin...thx for giving hand made roses..it was so beautiful..luv it very much....

yeah~~~jiao lian...thx for free us for today...but i dunno wat could i do today...sigh..nth to do...really hope tat we got practice today..so that i wont feel so lonely...
wat's a boring day i hd!!!

Funny + stupid day...

yeah~~~it should be a happy friday...the day be4 valentine day...

after we (me n haocheak) practiced for the huoyuanjia...my soigong(chris) asked me to accompany him to find the sponsor at ....(forgot where is the place ald) haha...
we searched for shop crazily..haha...
when we found the shop..wow~~so happy..
sigh..the boss was not in....actually i was so curious tat time...the name of the shop is THE BAKERY NEVER SLEEP...i walked around the shop n have a look...an ordinary n classic shop...which sell only muffin n some breads...

since our mission failed...we decided to walk away...chris suggested to watch movie since it was still early for me to go practice at 830pm...whose knw the curious case of benjamin button took my time for almost 2hours n 45 minutes...i was late to the practice n i got informed our jiaolian...

thx karen n theresa who fetched us bec fr mid valley...

once i reached balai zaba...team members were practicing themselves..i felt so sorry to them...but somebody asked:'where is our coach or tutors?'....i was afraid...i wondered wat hd happened...lastly tengyi came n teached...

i still dunno wat happened till then...it came to the end of the practice tat day...

Rehearsal

is the same day v the trip to pulau carey actually...

after the trip to pulau carey..we reached college at abt 300pm...but we(few ppl only laa-guorong, ah fook, ah pang, serpin, ivan n me) immediately hv to rush to seremban to return the drums...everyone were very exhausted tat time...huh~~

thx sai er for lending me ur car...
thx everyone who helped me n accompanied me to seremban to return the drums...
luv u all...thx you very much...

sai er, so sorry... i dun mean to tell lie actually...but guorong really tired at tat time...immediately i helped him to drive..he felt asleep unconciously...im serious...tat is really a great challenge to me...myself also felt very exhausted..but wat to do...??all the ppl in the car felt asleep..i was driving alone n following the slow speed lorry...i dunno why the lorry driver drove so slow...huh~~~and all of tat is our decision...so pls dun get angry v guorong or ivan...i dun mind if u get angry v me...again,sorry...

well..we reached college at 700pm...n so sorry to MT n the other cc members...we were late to rehearsal...as fast as i can,i quickly took my bath n came down to the rehearsal ald...

well,i took over liwei part to be the mc...but i js felt tat day rehearsal js like a mess...wat the...
nobody told me tat we only rehearsal for 4 chapters of the drama...it reached the rehearsal for the 24 season drums,i dunno why everyone was laughing at us...i js felt i was like a stupid standing in front...hate the feeling...

it came to the post mortem of the rehearsal...may b i was so emotional tat time...i js felt like everyone was shooting me..laughing at me...felt like wanna cry tat time...i almost collapsed tat time...luckily later i realise tat i was not alone...i still hv bro n sis alway by my side to support me...thx...

yaa..so sorry to my family members, i knw u all came to coll to find me to hv a meet today...but so sorry i cant make it...i did tell lie to u all...i said tat i was not in the coll...yes tat is truth..but do u all knw tat i was driving to seremban tat time..i din tell u all..bcoz i scared u all worried abt me...bcoz of tis, i was crying non stop after tat...homesick***

nobody could understand my feeling tat day...being so sad,tired,being misunderstood by others,being shoot,being blame..................................sob......

Pulau Carey-Life of Aborigin

today is the day i hd waited for...

i was so worried abt our perfomance today..

ppl spent abt rm900 to help us to get the drums, they provided a really good opportunity for us to perform..thx man..thx chaiming..

thx my team members also...practiced hard the whole week for today perfomance...u all really put ur great effort...though some of u still din gv good commitment...

thx our guorong jiao lian, roger tutor n tengyi tutor....

everyone, guorong really wish that we could grab such a good chance to perform...but we dissapointed him during the CNY...i knw he felt dissapointed tat time..even myself also felt dissapointed...we kept on contacting each other during the CNY to discuss whether wanna go n perform o not...but lastly we rejected...

today is the day..the day to perform..though u all said we hvn reached even 60% to perform on MKC nite...

dissapointed again...yes..i did mistakes...so sorry...

frenz will console u....

but best frenz will let u knw ur weakness..thx meishi n yuemin let me knw tat we did a really lousy perfomance...

it's come to the end of the celebration of CNY together v aborigin..we grabbed the chnace to visit to the aborigin's village...suprisingly we saw a lot of handmade souveniers there...

It's all abt drums!!!

well...we js made a decision yesterday..tat is we want to perform on tis coming sunday at pulau carey...

tis lead to i hv to settle another stuff...yeah..we nid to get drums from seremban...

peck har called me at 1030am...asked me to prepare everything to get the drums...well..we nid ppl to get the drums...but sigh..i keep on calling my team members since 1030am for almost 1 hour n 30 minutes...lastly i js managed to find 2 ppl to help me....i was so 'pek chek' tat time...really want to say !@ # $ # %^&*()_+ words tat time...luckily once i called keeyong...he quickly helped me to find ppl...i got the ans tat FPP ppl wanna skip class to help me...huh~~~so touching man...wow~~~

thx chaiming who offered the opportunity..
thx peck har n chaiming who helped to contact the drums' owner...
thx sai er who lend me ur car..
thx guorong jiao lian who drove the car...
thx guorong, zhaoke,keeyong,haocheak,ivan,n director-weixiang who accompanied me to get the drums)....
thx those who helped me to take drums to the balai zaba when we arrived...

it was really great experience for me...thx chaiming..without u..i would never hd such experience..

The Fifth Day Of CNY

After having breakfast v papa n yuemin,we are going bec to our hometown...
thx papa n popo for treating us the breakfast...even though popo u din join us to hv the breakfast..haha..

thx papa for showing me the way bec...luv u so much...u r so care abt us...so touching man...

we reached segamat after one hour then...

after i dropped down ah mian..i rushed to kfc to join the gathering...but sigh i was like made the gathering so unhappy...so sorry...i dun mean to do like tis...i was really busy answering call tat time...i dun mean to hold the hp all the photo session...sorry~~~~~

At nite~~actually i dun plan to visit to frenz' house anymore...
but lastly..yes i did go....
so sorry again...i was busy calling n sms-ing...
but could u pls dun blame me n understand me???i really felt hard to explain to u all...
i think the best is to go bec home at tat time...but whose knw i made a wrong decision ald..it made us almost quarrel...i tried to control my bad temper...sorry for making so unhappy atmosphere...who can understand???could somebody tell me wat to do???

i was so regretted...i din take any photos v u all...since then we din meet anymore...
n we were bec to respective uni n hv our own life....sob...

The Fourth day of CNY

yeah~~~finally the day i had waited for so long came...
i waited today from the day be4 CNY(the day we ate reunion dinner)...

although i told everyone in coll tat i was so happy bcoz of CNY..but the fact is i was not happy at all actually..i even hate CNY...i hate cookies..i hate gaseous drinks..i hate beer..(but i drank a lots of beer n alcohol during CNY)i hate to play v frenz till midnite...i hate to serve the guests...i hate to visit around the relatives' house...really tired u knw...somehow i dun knw how to address them..it was so complicated...but wat to do???it was the routine things i nid to do in every CNY...

Well..today we r going to muar to visit our college's frenz....i fetched feimian at ioi...n we started our journey at ard 9am...it was so unexpected,we reached meyi's house at 10am..huh~~~was i drove too fast rr??? dun knw ler...

haiz..we waited for the others to reach at meyi's house...finally ahsiong,ah pang, kyong n mingcher reached at 1130am...hoho..yeah..we started our journey to 'bainian'..ah siong be our tour guide...
the list below is the ppl who we hd visited :
1. Meyi
2. Yan Ling
3. Yue Min
4. Hui Ying
5. Ah Pang
6. Wei Wei
7. Ah Siong

(ladies n gentlemen, next time u all must visit to huiying's house ooo...her house is fulled of delicious food...some food r even from overseas ooo....)

yeah~~~we ate a lot of food today..if penang is the paradise of food...then muar can also be considered as the 2nd paradise of food also..hoho...
we enjoyed the lunch n dinner here..haha...
thx everyone...
(thx ah siong,lovely papa,meyi,weiwei,dawn ying,yuemin,keeyong,mingcher n ah mian)...
thx for making my fourth day of CNY so memorable...i luv u all so much...

special thx to yuemin...let us slept at ur house...thx rrr...

Again...You make me dissapointed...

Today is the day we all waited for so long...Why???this is the day for those ppl to make decision whether to quit or stay in the team...but you...you told me that you are so confident to convince them,to persuade them to stay in the team...you said you have at least 70% to success...but why..why i cant get your points tonite ??i cant even knw what are the points you gave...what i knew was you want to continue the spirit from the ex-seniors...because they helped you all a lots..and now is the time for you to help us - juniors in return...is it a strong point???i dun really know...may be...

Oh my dear coach,why don't you make everything clear??do you know that you haven't solve the problems??the problems are still...and yet there are annoying and irritating!!Oh my goodness...could you please don't alway say depends?or see the situation laa??do you knw that, you really make me suffer laaa....i'm sorry to say that if i were you..im absolutely will let all of them know everything..i totally will let them knw the drum practice's timetable,so that they can manage their time well... i want to let them knw how tough is the practice...i want each of them understand what is their responsibilities...but haiz...it's fine...

Frankly...till now...i dun even knw how importance is the mkc???what is the purpose we need to organize mkc???for what???i really dun knw!!i'm sorry to say about this...at first,i thought mkc is the programme for us -juniors and seniors to enclose the relationship among us..but then i realise that i was wrong...because it is the activity for us to break the relationship!!!what is the vision and mission of doing this programme???i wonder..again..cc is like my another home???sigh...

Dissapointed

It's the 2nd week of 2nd sem...im so energetic to attend to every class..may be i had enough rest in the past one week holiday..i think...huh~~~i hope that i could keep such spirit,i really don't want to repeat what i had done in the 1st sem..'it was a nightmare for me!!i don't want such stupid and hectic life anymore...i just wanna have more time for me to rest,study,and sleep!!can i???

Well,i had sms all the drum teammates to come to adin room tonite to have a practice, purposely for them to recall bec wat we had learnt during the break...
Really thank to those who came for practicing...i really appreciate you all...
And of course there is alway got some problems for me to solve...haiz...but this time,i think it is a big big problem for me...I really don't understand why both of u want to quit??All rite,i could accept that the reasons you gave...but what to do???you chose to join us at 1st,and promise me not to quit the team...but you break your promise now...why???why???i feel so sad,tired,exchausted,and dissapointed...I'm sorry to say that i really cant control myself at that time...i lost my direction..i don't know what to do...really!!!

Anyway,i apologize if i hurt you all unconciously and i apologize for my bad attitude on that night too...even to my drum teammates,my dear friends and seniors...im so sorry...

i will keep on trying, do my best and never give up..!!for sure....!

Happy New Year 2009!!

huh...it was the 1st time i went to countdown...wat's a great experience gained...actually i was thinking for so long whether want to go o not...but at last i went together with meishi,eric n yuemin...



It rained for a while before we started to go...unluckily,at the um bus stop,we met those qzh-ians...walau,so paiseh to meet them there since we refused to join them to go to countdown...

anyway im so sorry...



we reached sungai wang at around 7++pm...and we had our dinner at kfc inside the sungai wang...i was so fulled to finished my meal...huh~~

After tat, we accompanied eric to go aroung sg wang becoz he wanted to search for new clothes for CNY...hehehe..lastly he bought one...

we met jianhau n the other ex-seniors later...we were enjoying the concert there..but sigh..the place was crowded by ppl...i could breathe hardly...huh~~~it made me almost die...we were lack of oxigen while they crowd were playing the spray...huh~~~hate the stupid smell...

At ard 12am..everyone bcame damn crazy...spraying around...we were also the victims laaa...i even shoot by the water pistol..shit!!...tat was all jian hau n eric's false...ooohhh....i was so wet ...

After countdown we quickly walked to the LRT station,huh~~it was crowded by ppl too...damn terrible...luckily we were still able to go bec college at 2am..haha...

But then we went to the ss17 to yumcha...till 4am...huh~~we were exhausted n felt very sleepy...