Thx Jiao Lian

Meyi…thx for supporting my decision n encourage me not to gv up…

Serpin…thx rr…u r the one who sms me n encourage me not to gv up…
But sorry for making u disappointed in tis morning n afternoon practice…
I dun mean to hurt u…

Keeyong…thx for the meaningful mesej…

Papa…thx also…after chatting v u tat nite..i knw I wont gv up de…as wat u said, I hd worked so hard for it..still left only few days…everything will be fine after tis few days….

Chong heng-thx also rr…I knw prinsip cant earn money laaa…I dun care abt prinsip anymore…it’s all abt myself laa…

Lastly-special thx to my dear jiao lian…
I was ashamed to see act…but no choice…we met at IS is all bcoz fate…
I dunno wat had u heard… U r so understanding… u never ask me for the reason for not attending the morning n afternoon practice…
but u jst only ask abt the drumsticks…n asked me to have a rest…

I still remembered tat I asked u tat : r u sure tat I still will help them to buy the drumsticks n evrythings???
Ur ans is : yes, sure u will…confirm…

Thx for the ans…bcoz of the ans…I decided to return bec to the team…no matter wat…I will be bec…I wont make everyone who care abt me disappointed…thx you very much…thx for so confident n believe in me…

yes…I was so gila abt drums(meishi n yuemin knw abt tis)
Even I din go for the practice, but I still keep on asking hooihooi n haocheak tat wat had happened during the practice…still thinking of drums every single minutes…

Well..i will tell u the reason I get angry tat day if u want 2 knw…

Tired + BAD + Unlucky + SAD + Disappointed + Stupid

I wake up very early in the morning today…
I manage to hv my breakfast n also dapao breakfast for shinyen..

After tat..i quickly go bec to my room to rush my presentation slides…
I was so bad..today is the evaluation day for GTEE 1104…it is 30% of tis course…
But I hvn started to do my slides…it’s all my bad…

Luckily I manage to finish it b4 1pm..when I want to hv my lunch at dewan makan,my laptop suddenly switch off itself…damn…@#$%^^&*…
I quickly restart my laptop,luckily it autosave ald…huh~~~sweating at tat time…
So, I keep on doing my slides, inserting some pictures n effects to my slide till I miss the lunch…

Almost to 3pm..meishi n I quickly rush to the ODE tutorial…we were late…but Mr Kuru din say anything yet…we past our one hour tutorial by doing nth..haha..

After that, we moved KDK to continue doing slides n prepare for the test later…

Bcoz our class got so many ppl…the evaluation took us more than 3 hours lor…
So we finished our class at 815pm…I immediately rush bec to college coz I got drums practice at 830pm…reached college at 830pm..

After change my cloth, I rush to balai zaba as fast as I can…I miss my dinner again..
But still I were late to the practice 5 minutes…there r only 5 ppl there…(jinxin,joan,kaiwen,mabel n zhongwen)..thx for coming so early..
I was so blur tat time…somebody told me tat coach n tutors were there ald…but I really couldn’t see anyone in dark…I dunno wat happen to my eyes…act everything I saw was blur images…

Coach n tutors left 6 of us without saying anything..question mark??

Everyone came at 9pm..we moved our drums to tennis court, n started to practice..
And I went to lobby to find coach n tutors..tengyi told me guorong get angry ald..i was shivering tat time..i wondered why always me kena???really wat the…..

Well..later I saw the most terrible things…they keep on scolding..keeping on saying rude words..OMG…but it’s ok…I understand ur feeling de…

Me myself also get angry then…there r still got some selfish ppl there…wat a discussion???for wat???get no result discussion????

I was so so so bad temper. someone made me so angry but nobody support me tat time…u r not layak to say such thing to me!!well I bear him…I told some of them I will quit the team…I was so stupid for saying so stupid word…I was so stupid to get angry v such ppl..it’s not worth at all…

huh~~~

thx god...today is not the MKC nite..luckily MKC has changed the date to 28th of Feb...
it was raining cat n dog...huh~~terrible~~~i could not imagine tat if today were MKC..wat will happen???

Less rehearsal..
Deco part hvn done...
No booklet....
Invitation cards hvn sent out....
No VIP....
Gimik hvn done...
dancers hvn practice for their 2nd dance..
Drama still not hv full rehearsal...
No background music...
No multimedia...
No lighting n audio...
Acher never practice for their part...
No drums....
No drumsticks....
the drums perfomance still not satisfy...
No audiences....

huh~~a lot of things hvn done....
thx god...today is not MKC...
today is only rehearsal...
we still have one week time to prepare for all those things...
hey ppl....let's jia you together....gambateh...

Sorry...

this is the 1st time i went to studio....
thx for giving me tis chance...

but i was so scared to co-operate v u all...
since u all r so expert in music..i was js like a beginner...
knw nth abt music...even sometime played the wrong tempo...
so sorry that i spoilt the songs rr....
make u all nid to repeat n repeat to play the song again n again...
so sorry....
i really dun knw abt music though i luv to listen songs...

i could not relax myself act since u all keep on asking us to relax n enjoy the time in the studio...

thx guorong n tengyi who guide us to play the songs...

thx lesley, ming cher, kesin, n jun who alway encourage us...n never blame me for playing such a lousy music...huh~~~

thx whoever support us all the time...

Deep Blue Sunday~~~Special Sharing session

we have drums practice like usual...
i woke up at 8am in the morning..ooo...after i hd my breakfast..went to balai zaba like usual...
some ppl still late to the practice like usual...everything like usual...
till the end of the morning slot...coach suddenly asked me to make sure everyone to come to practice in the afternoon slot...

i wondered why...
but then i forgot what i hd done fr 12pm till 2pm...
i think i was doing my hubungan etnik slide tat time laa...

it came to the time 2pm...
everyone came....coach came....tutors came...full attendance...
but sth made me so curious...why suddenly got so many seniors came???they knw sth will happen,izzit????

all rite...coach started to talk...
everyone was looking at us...
i hate such atmosphere...so serious...
of course they were talking abt sth serious ..
they said tat we dun respect them…huh~~~(when rr??where got??big question mark in my mind??)..but later I discovered sth unexpected…n I realise y they want to hv such a special sharing session…

all rite..everyone was starting to talk....
some even started to argue..luckily no quarreling...

i really dun wan to talk laaa...bcoz i was thinking tat even i voiced out..they also wont change de….
but i knw someone really wish tat i will talk lor...no worries..i wont make u disappointed de...since u r so so sooo supporting me from the beginning till now....really luv u laa...sometime really felt sorry to u, get angry v u, being not polite to u...i knw i was so childish...thx for understanding me n still giving support to me...u really pandai psycho lor...haha...

damn...once i started to talk..the atmosphere was so quiet...
i was so useless...talked not even one sentence n my tears started to drop down...
oh my god...i cried till non stop..i wondered how can i continue to talk ler..
i took quite a long time to calm down n continue to talk...funny...

since then...i was called 'ai ku bao' by bro...shit...
tell u all rr...7th CC really dun hv secret de ler...the news spread very fast till everyone knw tat i cried on tat day...oohhh...no face ald...
somebody buy me a mask??? i want a mask.....

Happy Valentine day!!

wahaha...dun expect anything will happen to me today...
it's nth happen ok...
sorry for making u all disappointed...hehe...

well..but i got received some dedications wor...

thx for those who dedicate bear n roses to me...

1stly...thx to my ex-4am club president-Mr Gregory...thx for giving me 3 beautiful roses...
2ndly...thx to my lovely papa-Mr Pang Kim Choon...thx for giving me sweet chocolates...
3rd...thx to my best ever jiao lian- Mr Jong Kuet Yong...thx for giving ur roomate-Bear..haha
4th...thx to my suigong-Mr Christopher..thx for giving me a lovely bear bear also...
lastly...thx to my 'da bian lian'- Mr Quek Ser Pin...thx for giving hand made roses..it was so beautiful..luv it very much....

yeah~~~jiao lian...thx for free us for today...but i dunno wat could i do today...sigh..nth to do...really hope tat we got practice today..so that i wont feel so lonely...
wat's a boring day i hd!!!

Funny + stupid day...

yeah~~~it should be a happy friday...the day be4 valentine day...

after we (me n haocheak) practiced for the huoyuanjia...my soigong(chris) asked me to accompany him to find the sponsor at ....(forgot where is the place ald) haha...
we searched for shop crazily..haha...
when we found the shop..wow~~so happy..
sigh..the boss was not in....actually i was so curious tat time...the name of the shop is THE BAKERY NEVER SLEEP...i walked around the shop n have a look...an ordinary n classic shop...which sell only muffin n some breads...

since our mission failed...we decided to walk away...chris suggested to watch movie since it was still early for me to go practice at 830pm...whose knw the curious case of benjamin button took my time for almost 2hours n 45 minutes...i was late to the practice n i got informed our jiaolian...

thx karen n theresa who fetched us bec fr mid valley...

once i reached balai zaba...team members were practicing themselves..i felt so sorry to them...but somebody asked:'where is our coach or tutors?'....i was afraid...i wondered wat hd happened...lastly tengyi came n teached...

i still dunno wat happened till then...it came to the end of the practice tat day...

Rehearsal

is the same day v the trip to pulau carey actually...

after the trip to pulau carey..we reached college at abt 300pm...but we(few ppl only laa-guorong, ah fook, ah pang, serpin, ivan n me) immediately hv to rush to seremban to return the drums...everyone were very exhausted tat time...huh~~

thx sai er for lending me ur car...
thx everyone who helped me n accompanied me to seremban to return the drums...
luv u all...thx you very much...

sai er, so sorry... i dun mean to tell lie actually...but guorong really tired at tat time...immediately i helped him to drive..he felt asleep unconciously...im serious...tat is really a great challenge to me...myself also felt very exhausted..but wat to do...??all the ppl in the car felt asleep..i was driving alone n following the slow speed lorry...i dunno why the lorry driver drove so slow...huh~~~and all of tat is our decision...so pls dun get angry v guorong or ivan...i dun mind if u get angry v me...again,sorry...

well..we reached college at 700pm...n so sorry to MT n the other cc members...we were late to rehearsal...as fast as i can,i quickly took my bath n came down to the rehearsal ald...

well,i took over liwei part to be the mc...but i js felt tat day rehearsal js like a mess...wat the...
nobody told me tat we only rehearsal for 4 chapters of the drama...it reached the rehearsal for the 24 season drums,i dunno why everyone was laughing at us...i js felt i was like a stupid standing in front...hate the feeling...

it came to the post mortem of the rehearsal...may b i was so emotional tat time...i js felt like everyone was shooting me..laughing at me...felt like wanna cry tat time...i almost collapsed tat time...luckily later i realise tat i was not alone...i still hv bro n sis alway by my side to support me...thx...

yaa..so sorry to my family members, i knw u all came to coll to find me to hv a meet today...but so sorry i cant make it...i did tell lie to u all...i said tat i was not in the coll...yes tat is truth..but do u all knw tat i was driving to seremban tat time..i din tell u all..bcoz i scared u all worried abt me...bcoz of tis, i was crying non stop after tat...homesick***

nobody could understand my feeling tat day...being so sad,tired,being misunderstood by others,being shoot,being blame..................................sob......

Pulau Carey-Life of Aborigin

today is the day i hd waited for...

i was so worried abt our perfomance today..

ppl spent abt rm900 to help us to get the drums, they provided a really good opportunity for us to perform..thx man..thx chaiming..

thx my team members also...practiced hard the whole week for today perfomance...u all really put ur great effort...though some of u still din gv good commitment...

thx our guorong jiao lian, roger tutor n tengyi tutor....

everyone, guorong really wish that we could grab such a good chance to perform...but we dissapointed him during the CNY...i knw he felt dissapointed tat time..even myself also felt dissapointed...we kept on contacting each other during the CNY to discuss whether wanna go n perform o not...but lastly we rejected...

today is the day..the day to perform..though u all said we hvn reached even 60% to perform on MKC nite...

dissapointed again...yes..i did mistakes...so sorry...

frenz will console u....

but best frenz will let u knw ur weakness..thx meishi n yuemin let me knw tat we did a really lousy perfomance...

it's come to the end of the celebration of CNY together v aborigin..we grabbed the chnace to visit to the aborigin's village...suprisingly we saw a lot of handmade souveniers there...

It's all abt drums!!!

well...we js made a decision yesterday..tat is we want to perform on tis coming sunday at pulau carey...

tis lead to i hv to settle another stuff...yeah..we nid to get drums from seremban...

peck har called me at 1030am...asked me to prepare everything to get the drums...well..we nid ppl to get the drums...but sigh..i keep on calling my team members since 1030am for almost 1 hour n 30 minutes...lastly i js managed to find 2 ppl to help me....i was so 'pek chek' tat time...really want to say !@ # $ # %^&*()_+ words tat time...luckily once i called keeyong...he quickly helped me to find ppl...i got the ans tat FPP ppl wanna skip class to help me...huh~~~so touching man...wow~~~

thx chaiming who offered the opportunity..
thx peck har n chaiming who helped to contact the drums' owner...
thx sai er who lend me ur car..
thx guorong jiao lian who drove the car...
thx guorong, zhaoke,keeyong,haocheak,ivan,n director-weixiang who accompanied me to get the drums)....
thx those who helped me to take drums to the balai zaba when we arrived...

it was really great experience for me...thx chaiming..without u..i would never hd such experience..

The Fifth Day Of CNY

After having breakfast v papa n yuemin,we are going bec to our hometown...
thx papa n popo for treating us the breakfast...even though popo u din join us to hv the breakfast..haha..

thx papa for showing me the way bec...luv u so much...u r so care abt us...so touching man...

we reached segamat after one hour then...

after i dropped down ah mian..i rushed to kfc to join the gathering...but sigh i was like made the gathering so unhappy...so sorry...i dun mean to do like tis...i was really busy answering call tat time...i dun mean to hold the hp all the photo session...sorry~~~~~

At nite~~actually i dun plan to visit to frenz' house anymore...
but lastly..yes i did go....
so sorry again...i was busy calling n sms-ing...
but could u pls dun blame me n understand me???i really felt hard to explain to u all...
i think the best is to go bec home at tat time...but whose knw i made a wrong decision ald..it made us almost quarrel...i tried to control my bad temper...sorry for making so unhappy atmosphere...who can understand???could somebody tell me wat to do???

i was so regretted...i din take any photos v u all...since then we din meet anymore...
n we were bec to respective uni n hv our own life....sob...

The Fourth day of CNY

yeah~~~finally the day i had waited for so long came...
i waited today from the day be4 CNY(the day we ate reunion dinner)...

although i told everyone in coll tat i was so happy bcoz of CNY..but the fact is i was not happy at all actually..i even hate CNY...i hate cookies..i hate gaseous drinks..i hate beer..(but i drank a lots of beer n alcohol during CNY)i hate to play v frenz till midnite...i hate to serve the guests...i hate to visit around the relatives' house...really tired u knw...somehow i dun knw how to address them..it was so complicated...but wat to do???it was the routine things i nid to do in every CNY...

Well..today we r going to muar to visit our college's frenz....i fetched feimian at ioi...n we started our journey at ard 9am...it was so unexpected,we reached meyi's house at 10am..huh~~~was i drove too fast rr??? dun knw ler...

haiz..we waited for the others to reach at meyi's house...finally ahsiong,ah pang, kyong n mingcher reached at 1130am...hoho..yeah..we started our journey to 'bainian'..ah siong be our tour guide...
the list below is the ppl who we hd visited :
1. Meyi
2. Yan Ling
3. Yue Min
4. Hui Ying
5. Ah Pang
6. Wei Wei
7. Ah Siong

(ladies n gentlemen, next time u all must visit to huiying's house ooo...her house is fulled of delicious food...some food r even from overseas ooo....)

yeah~~~we ate a lot of food today..if penang is the paradise of food...then muar can also be considered as the 2nd paradise of food also..hoho...
we enjoyed the lunch n dinner here..haha...
thx everyone...
(thx ah siong,lovely papa,meyi,weiwei,dawn ying,yuemin,keeyong,mingcher n ah mian)...
thx for making my fourth day of CNY so memorable...i luv u all so much...

special thx to yuemin...let us slept at ur house...thx rrr...