CC trip - Bagan Lalang

闷闷不乐了那么多天，使时候放松心情一下。。。所以就跟随了cc这个大家庭去海边玩玩渡假。
原本也没抱多大的希望这个cc trip 会多好玩。。不过，也真没让我失望啊。。。的确是蛮好玩的。。谢谢你们咯。。

这三天两夜的trip，真的让我获益不浅啊。。。但我个人觉得这个trip的宗旨与目标并没有达成。。。我根本就没有看到有哪些人是没有分辈分的在交流着。。。seniors还是跟会seniors的在沟通。。而我们这些juniors也有自己的世界。。。就算有，大家也只是被框在自己的小组内交流而已。。。所以。。哈哈。。有好一些人我都还不是很认识咯。。。应该是说我根本就不认识。。但我觉得这些都应该是来自个人的问题。。毕竟cc 只是一个平台让我们去接触与认识更多人吧了。。。一切还得靠自己吧。。。加油咯大家！！

CC 是否是我们的另一个家？？？我不晓得。。但确定的是一些seniors真的帮了我很多很多。。谢谢你们哦。。。也很高兴认识你们。。希望在未来的日子里我们都还会保持联络。。。

心情超低落~~~feeling so down~~~

I really fallen ill after came bec from bukit tinggi...we hd travelled for a very long n stupid journey to go bec...till i hd headache n feeling bad...actually i hd ald fallen sick on the 1st day we went to bukit tinggi...tq to those who always care of me...10q very much...

btw,we hd sucessful organised QZH3 camp at sjk(c) bukit tinggi...but we faced a lot of obstacles...huh~~~till then,i found tat it is really hard to well organised a camp....

Mon, i hvn recovered from sick...still got fever...the sub probability result was announced n i got a very poor result...i was feeling so down...wanna to cry???i hv no tears...at noon,we hd APK meeting, n i din go down...sorry yaa to my team members, i really sick n felt asleep until i miss up the meeting...i was not intent to do so...at nite..there was a CC meeting which took most of my free time...i hate the meeting,i hate those who waste my golden time...after meeting,i hate those who do not believe in me...they dun understand me...who keep on blaming me din go to the APK meeting...even i hd explained,still they chose to not believe me....i was totally hurt by u all...is this wat we call 'friend'????im so hurt,u knw???i could not wait anymore,i walked as quickly as i can to go bec to my room to cry...i scared ppl see my ugly crying face...T.T
(So,for those who hd read my blog,u should know tat im not get angry with certain ppl only...)

i was simply feeling down the whole week...i dunno why...i totally lose myself...im not mine anymore...i was not the easy going gal anymore,i can't smile anymore...u could hardly find smile on my face...my smile was so fake,i know...i dun wan to see any ppl...so i chose not to go to dewan makan the whole week...i din eat rice for the whole week...i was very suffer...really really really suffer!!!!!!i hate..i hate..i hate..i hate...i HATE everything!!!i HATE my uni life!!so tiring n irritating!!so stressful!!i HATE myself for being a stupid ppl, for being a foolish, for being a failure!!!!!who can understand me??sometimes i even think to escape from the 7th residential college...can i???i tried to sms my best frenz but she din reply me...so sad..r u very busy v u assignment??im helpless..simply wan to express my feeling to u...i knw,i shouldn't being selfish to disturb u since we hv our own life now..i'm so sorry...

i knw,some of u are really willing to listen to me...but im so sorry, i won't easily let ppl knw abt my things...i really want to speak up to u,bt at last i gave up to do so...i really scared tat if i tell my problems to anyone of u, then the others will knw it too...i got such experiences be4,i really really scared the feeling betrayed by ppl...so sorry yaa,cafelyn n my big hand-gareth.....

but anyway i would like to thank to my club advisor who always share meaningful stories with me...i loves ur stories...sometimes the stories were very touching....seriously,i love them very much....
thank to my "sui gong" also...thank for accompanying me for the whole nite...hope we all can solve our problems very soon...have a new start soon....
thank to my dear friends - meishi n yuemin...thanks for listening to me always...

Mooncake Festival

I forgot how long i hv been not celebrate for the mooncake festival...since form 4?i really can't recall bec...since u passed away??i dun knw...im not sure...i still remembered tat we hd a barbeque party for every single occasions tat we celebrated be4...we gathered together,we played around,we talked for the whole nite till morning...but now..no more...u left us forever...bt still u r alway on my mind...

2day, 14th of sept, we-4am club and supper nite club hd a small monncake festival celebration at Gazebo(pondok in 7th residential college)...yaa...we invited some of the friends n seniors to join,but still academic is more important,they rather study hard in the room than joining us to celebrate mooncake festival..only few seniors came n join us...i wonder will they forget their role as a chinese one day?? thank you to those who light up my small celebration...hehe...i seriously hd fun tat nite...

we sat together,we talked together, seniors shared their experiences v us...n we also sang songs together...we recalled bec our minggun haluansiswa theme song-Gemuruh...where 3rd seniors taught us their theme song too-jalinan...huh...i simply like tis song very much....n last but not least our CC song n Talent's nite theme song-小手拉大手....again,i feel CC like my another home???
haha...dear ah boy...joel n me...
dear 4am club n supper nite club-ah greg, me, caan ee, yuemin, meishi, n sai er....
my dear big hand-karwai...who really takes care of me...10q so much....
yeah~~we celebrated mooncake festival together....10q for giving me a happy nite....
hehe...we made the gazebo become a very romantic place....haha..