Like usual, I started my day with a definitely good mood. I smiled to everyone I met and I had a good start on my work. The endless problems were still unsolved, sleeping quietly in emails. And yet, there came in another few problems to be solved. Problems started to swim into my mail box one by one, and my mood was getting down and down and down whenever there was an email fly in.
I was trying very hard to fix the problems and whose know, my problems have yet to be solved and then I discovered something which was making my mood jumping from the peak of mountain to the bottom of it. Damn it! I just felt like scolding her, who screwed up my work. I was so so so angry anyway. A 5 years old little girl may somehow did the job better than her. She is really "Fxxking asshxxx"!
I was so pissed off because of her and she was definitely fuck up my day!
I finished up my work and went back with a definitely bad mood. I was so not into the mood to go training anymore and I was so upset all the way back from the office.
But guess what, something funny happened when I reached at the LRT station. I met up with one of my friend before went to the training. So I was like asking him "Hey, would you like to walk in UM or take the bus instead?" And he said either way. But he ended up chasing the bus which was in front of the traffic light and we finally went up the bus. Later we realized that we went up the wrong bus. Gosh! So to save our time, I took out the flyers from my bag and started to talk to the passengers in the bus.
Wow, I could hardly describe the kind of feeling by words. It was so wonderful when you were actually started to speak up and spread out the message to the people around you. I can really feel the changes of myself then. The one of me 10 minutes ago and the one who took the wrong bus after 10 minutes.
Thanks man, I back to who am I, and I am still who I am.
Cool~~at least, I don't feel bad now. ^^
Thursday, April 12, 2012
Tuesday, April 10, 2012
To Me
Q : How are you feeling today?
A : I'm not doing good today! I'm not in a good mood today!
Q : What happened, my dear?
A : Someone fuck up my work. They kept repeated the same mistakes every month. I asked them for explanation, and they admitted that it was their fault. But what, to the client, we are the one who made mistakes over and over again. What can I do to solve this problem? I have no idea what is the next step and what would be the win win solution for client and us. Seriously, it's the time to review back their work wise, they are so called not professional at all, they will find all the excuses to get out from this. And out of sudden, I would be blamed as the one who made the mistakes! What?! I really hate them! From the top to the bottom, I hate them! Damn, I hope I have the strength all the time, I have the patience to deal with them. Please stop doing any mistakes! Please never ever try to challenge my limits! I'm so nervous and so tired of all this issues!
Q : Do you think you did wrong? If not, why are you nervous?
A : Everything that I provided was correct. Yes, I admit that I'm careless sometimes, may be the so call alignment were not made to the left, but could this be the issue for you to call the wrong numbers? I'm nervous because I have the full responsibility on this task and I was the only one who know this task better. I'm so stressed for certain time of period. I have nobody to assist me on this though this is not a big deal. But somehow, I wish there is someone to help me out or may be understand what I am talking when I have problem with the task. Well, I'm fine, I finished up my complaining, let's continue working!
Q : Cool~~So, you know what to do yaa?
A : At the moment, I have no idea on what to do yet. Will see later.
Life is full of uncertainty, when you think you have do the best, may be someone do not think so. Don't worry, be confident in the way you do, be assured on the things you do, let's move forward! They will definitely see your hard work clearly!
Phei Szi, fighting! I believe you will have the strength and wisdom to undergo all this uncertainty and to surmount all the obstacles that you face!
Looking forward to see a successful you in front of me.
Smile always and be the one who always bring hope to the people around you. Make it happen!
Cheers!
A : I'm not doing good today! I'm not in a good mood today!
Q : What happened, my dear?
A : Someone fuck up my work. They kept repeated the same mistakes every month. I asked them for explanation, and they admitted that it was their fault. But what, to the client, we are the one who made mistakes over and over again. What can I do to solve this problem? I have no idea what is the next step and what would be the win win solution for client and us. Seriously, it's the time to review back their work wise, they are so called not professional at all, they will find all the excuses to get out from this. And out of sudden, I would be blamed as the one who made the mistakes! What?! I really hate them! From the top to the bottom, I hate them! Damn, I hope I have the strength all the time, I have the patience to deal with them. Please stop doing any mistakes! Please never ever try to challenge my limits! I'm so nervous and so tired of all this issues!
Q : Do you think you did wrong? If not, why are you nervous?
A : Everything that I provided was correct. Yes, I admit that I'm careless sometimes, may be the so call alignment were not made to the left, but could this be the issue for you to call the wrong numbers? I'm nervous because I have the full responsibility on this task and I was the only one who know this task better. I'm so stressed for certain time of period. I have nobody to assist me on this though this is not a big deal. But somehow, I wish there is someone to help me out or may be understand what I am talking when I have problem with the task. Well, I'm fine, I finished up my complaining, let's continue working!
Q : Cool~~So, you know what to do yaa?
A : At the moment, I have no idea on what to do yet. Will see later.
Life is full of uncertainty, when you think you have do the best, may be someone do not think so. Don't worry, be confident in the way you do, be assured on the things you do, let's move forward! They will definitely see your hard work clearly!
Phei Szi, fighting! I believe you will have the strength and wisdom to undergo all this uncertainty and to surmount all the obstacles that you face!
Looking forward to see a successful you in front of me.
Smile always and be the one who always bring hope to the people around you. Make it happen!
Cheers!
Sunday, April 8, 2012
It's just a Beginning
Finally, I had came to the day. The day that I waited for so long.
It was kind of mix feeling for me to have my own Gohonzon.
I was struggling in within my heart before and after I received Gohonzon on 1st of April.
You would never know how I felt in the past few weeks if you were not me.
There were so many problems bothered me, and yes, this is part of them.
May be deep in your heart, you would ask "Why are you decided to enshrine your own Gohonzon?" or "What made you to have such decision?" or "What is your resolution after enshrine your Gohonzon?"
Of course, I have think of all those WHYs that appeared in your mind over and over again. One of the most crucial factor was that I wanted to have a long run in the path of Kosen Rufu, and I found out that this is the only way to keep me stay still with gakkai and to follow the teaching of Nichiren Daishonin for eternal life.
Initially, I'm so worried if I have that strong faith in practicing the Buddhism of Nichiren Daishonin.
I'm so frustrated if I'm good enough in doing my own human revolution.
I'm so upset if I have to organize the enshrinement ceremony all on my own.
I'm so guilty if I'm not attending the gakkai meetings in the future.
I'm so nervous if I'm not treating Gohonzon as my second life.
All the worries would actually cover the excitement in my inner heart.
Well, before the enshrinement ceremony, I was actually attended New EG training.
And I was awaken by the PIC in her welcoming speech.
The guidance was sounded like "Be clear with your own destination, be strong in your direction towards it, and never ever forget why are you choosing the path not taken. You might feel helpless sometimes, you might suffering at the half way of your journey, you might struggling to overcome all the obstacles, but please be brave, be strong and be confident throughout your journey. I believe in you, you will be the successor one day, you will achieve the great victory one day! Let's fight together!"
I was inspired again. It was such a long time I did not listen to such guidance. It was such a long time I have not been motivated. Any yes, it's the time for me to review on my own and to have a new start again.
All the negative thoughts which were deep in my heart or may be deep in my mind should be thrown away right now.
Well, it's not the end of the story of mine.
It's just a beginning!
Cheers!
It was kind of mix feeling for me to have my own Gohonzon.
I was struggling in within my heart before and after I received Gohonzon on 1st of April.
You would never know how I felt in the past few weeks if you were not me.
There were so many problems bothered me, and yes, this is part of them.
May be deep in your heart, you would ask "Why are you decided to enshrine your own Gohonzon?" or "What made you to have such decision?" or "What is your resolution after enshrine your Gohonzon?"
Of course, I have think of all those WHYs that appeared in your mind over and over again. One of the most crucial factor was that I wanted to have a long run in the path of Kosen Rufu, and I found out that this is the only way to keep me stay still with gakkai and to follow the teaching of Nichiren Daishonin for eternal life.
Initially, I'm so worried if I have that strong faith in practicing the Buddhism of Nichiren Daishonin.
I'm so frustrated if I'm good enough in doing my own human revolution.
I'm so upset if I have to organize the enshrinement ceremony all on my own.
I'm so guilty if I'm not attending the gakkai meetings in the future.
I'm so nervous if I'm not treating Gohonzon as my second life.
All the worries would actually cover the excitement in my inner heart.
Well, before the enshrinement ceremony, I was actually attended New EG training.
And I was awaken by the PIC in her welcoming speech.
The guidance was sounded like "Be clear with your own destination, be strong in your direction towards it, and never ever forget why are you choosing the path not taken. You might feel helpless sometimes, you might suffering at the half way of your journey, you might struggling to overcome all the obstacles, but please be brave, be strong and be confident throughout your journey. I believe in you, you will be the successor one day, you will achieve the great victory one day! Let's fight together!"
I was inspired again. It was such a long time I did not listen to such guidance. It was such a long time I have not been motivated. Any yes, it's the time for me to review on my own and to have a new start again.
All the negative thoughts which were deep in my heart or may be deep in my mind should be thrown away right now.
Well, it's not the end of the story of mine.
It's just a beginning!
Cheers!
Saturday, April 7, 2012
The First 100% after 6 Months.
After the long journey we sailed through, finally our team achieved 100% for this month. A result that seemed impossible to achieve and yet we always hope to achieve in the past few months. And now, miracle happened, we made it happen! This was amazing! I would never forget the process that we strive through to achieve this, the different story behind each of everyone to fight for this target, the effort that everyone had put into to achieve this. It was so important that everyone should have the same target, and moving forwards in the same direction.
The single achievement of a team or project was actually mean a lot to the company. They knew, and they were even more excited than anyone of us in the team. They would actually give you a great surprised party as an encouragement for the great achievement. I was so touched when I found out that the director of the company who actually was the one planned for all the surprised for us. I was so lucky that I was one among this big family and I knew I would never experience this in any of the company out there. The warmest moment that they gave, the encouragement that they gave to boost up your spirit was so inspiring. The ended of the surprised party was actually forced me to say goodbye to March.
The appraisal that I had yesterday was actually reminded me again on my expectations towards the job, and yes, of course, it reminded me that the first quarter of this year had passed! Time flies, and time waits no one. Please wake up, Phei Szi! Please live for a fruitful life! Please do not wait a single minute anymore! Please work on something now!
March, a month which full of different feelings for me. I had gone through the saddest moment that I had ever felt before, the tiring moment ever, the stressful moment ever. You will never know how much time I was awake from sleep because of the grievousness. I, myself was so surprised when the first time it happened, I was awake from crying in the dream. I thought I was strong enough to accept all this thing happened, and later I realized that I'm not that strong actually. May be many of you still have doubt on me, why am I do not look sad, why can I still wear red shirt? What I can say is I did whatever I could when she was alive, I treated her the best than anyone of them, what I regretted was I did not have much time to be with her in the past. It's useless to show out your sadness or whatever after she gone. Stop judging me from my look or facial expression.
Whatever past had passed, life is still gong on. Let's move forward! Farewell my lovely March. I'm sorry to greet you late, APRIL! A month which is full of challenges! Fighting!
The single achievement of a team or project was actually mean a lot to the company. They knew, and they were even more excited than anyone of us in the team. They would actually give you a great surprised party as an encouragement for the great achievement. I was so touched when I found out that the director of the company who actually was the one planned for all the surprised for us. I was so lucky that I was one among this big family and I knew I would never experience this in any of the company out there. The warmest moment that they gave, the encouragement that they gave to boost up your spirit was so inspiring. The ended of the surprised party was actually forced me to say goodbye to March.
The appraisal that I had yesterday was actually reminded me again on my expectations towards the job, and yes, of course, it reminded me that the first quarter of this year had passed! Time flies, and time waits no one. Please wake up, Phei Szi! Please live for a fruitful life! Please do not wait a single minute anymore! Please work on something now!
March, a month which full of different feelings for me. I had gone through the saddest moment that I had ever felt before, the tiring moment ever, the stressful moment ever. You will never know how much time I was awake from sleep because of the grievousness. I, myself was so surprised when the first time it happened, I was awake from crying in the dream. I thought I was strong enough to accept all this thing happened, and later I realized that I'm not that strong actually. May be many of you still have doubt on me, why am I do not look sad, why can I still wear red shirt? What I can say is I did whatever I could when she was alive, I treated her the best than anyone of them, what I regretted was I did not have much time to be with her in the past. It's useless to show out your sadness or whatever after she gone. Stop judging me from my look or facial expression.
Whatever past had passed, life is still gong on. Let's move forward! Farewell my lovely March. I'm sorry to greet you late, APRIL! A month which is full of challenges! Fighting!
Monday, March 12, 2012
Specially for HER
After thinking for so long, I decided to write about her.
Thanks her for being part of my family, part of my life.
Thanks her for giving me such a great Dad!
Without her, I have no idea where will I be, who am I today!
Though sometimes I just felt dislike her short memory, which she kept calling me a wrong name, and kept talking to me in Hakka which I don't really understand, but what to do, I was still need to accept all this.
When time passes, and I grown up, she changed up in quite a sudden, she was able to call my name correctly, and she talked to me in Mandarin!
Though the same dishes would be served for every reunion dinner, but still, when everyone was sitting together and having the dinner together, no matter the dishes tasted salty or tasteless, we would still enjoy the dinner so much! Thanks her for making all the family members together.
I could not really imagine how would our reunion dinner be without her next year.
The last memory with her would be the day she attended my graduation ceremony, and she brought a bucket of flowers for me. I don't really remember whether I did thank her or not, I really regretted that I don't really serve her well on that day, I should bring her to walk around my university, the place that I survived for three years. I really thanked for coming in such a special and important day for me.
I still remembered that day, 9th of February, the day that the doctor diagnosed her was in the last stage of lung cancer. We were so surprised to know this! She got this without any symptoms! We had no idea on what to do, just be nice to her, gave her whatever she wanted, did whatever she wanted us to do.
Time flies, I received the news of her death after one month, 8th of March.
The seconds that I got the call, I told myself, this was the best way for her, and this was what I always pray for her, "let her go when it's the time for her, let her suffer the least". My prayer was finally answered. Though we were hard to accept this, but we were still need to accept. Life must goes on.
I stayed calm for the time when I received news till now, but what I got from friends was why aren't you feeling sad? Are you close to her? You are cold blood! I don't see a drop of tears drop out from your eyes!
Yes, I am feeling sad. But do I really need to show out my sad face for everyone to see?
I was crying over and over again when I knew she was suffering from the lung cancer.
What I would say is when you know more about death, you would not grieve on this anymore. This is just a part of the cycle of life. We should feel happy for her, at least she suffered the least. Do you know how much suffer when you could not breath and need to depend on the machine to get oxygen and help you to breath? I know this! This is really suffering! Do you know how sad she was when she lied on the bed and could not move, talk and eat anymore?
I already expected that she would left us very soon when I last visited her in the hospital Segamat one week before her death. She was calling us back just to see us for the last time. Seriously I felt so sad when I saw her on the bed, can't even talk to me a single word. The last word that I heard from her was "It was late already, please go back to KL and work. Drive safe."
Thanks for walking into my life, though not much memories we had together, but still I appreciate everything from you!
No worries, I will keep everything fresh in mind.
I will make you be proud of me!
Thanks grandma!
R.I.P
Sunday, January 15, 2012
Random Feeling
Well, I had a long time didn't write any blog. Just suddenly feel like I want to write down something at this time, at this moment.
I'm suppose to face the books for the whole day, but I ended up with facing laptop screen for the whole day.
Just couldn't find up what was happening to myself. Just feel like study life is no longer belong to me. I don't even have the mood to start up reading the first paragraph of the notes. Just thinking of giving up all the time. I'm always asking myself, why am I choosing this path? And why am I so easily to give up?
My mind keep on thinking Chinese New Year. Ohh..damn, how can I switch on CNY mood before switching on study mood.
Okay, at this time, I don't really have any mood to study, all my mind is full of You, You and You..
My dear friends, I'm so missing you guys. Can't wait any single minute to meet with you all. Arrhhh...How I wish you all are right in front me and chit chatting with me.
Well, PS, please get back to the reality, stop dreaming and get back to your study!! Ganbatte!!You can do it!!
I'm suppose to face the books for the whole day, but I ended up with facing laptop screen for the whole day.
Just couldn't find up what was happening to myself. Just feel like study life is no longer belong to me. I don't even have the mood to start up reading the first paragraph of the notes. Just thinking of giving up all the time. I'm always asking myself, why am I choosing this path? And why am I so easily to give up?
My mind keep on thinking Chinese New Year. Ohh..damn, how can I switch on CNY mood before switching on study mood.
Okay, at this time, I don't really have any mood to study, all my mind is full of You, You and You..
My dear friends, I'm so missing you guys. Can't wait any single minute to meet with you all. Arrhhh...How I wish you all are right in front me and chit chatting with me.
Well, PS, please get back to the reality, stop dreaming and get back to your study!! Ganbatte!!You can do it!!
Friday, May 27, 2011
古晋的热情
一年前就定好的机票，一年后才完成的古晋之旅。就这样，我们七个人去到了一个人生地不熟的美丽城市。从租车，到去每一个景点，都是全靠一张嘴和一张厚厚的脸皮，到处问人，才顺利地进行每一件事。所谓：“路在嘴边”嘛。。哈哈。。当然，整个旅程也遇到了几位热情的朋友相助，回想起来我们还真的很幸运。
其实，就算没有认识的朋友领路，自个儿也能在古晋闯得很好。古晋的路很简单走，不怎么容易在这儿迷路。最重要的是要知道每个地点的方向和所在之处。建议大家最好是要有一张比较完整的古晋地图，这样你的旅程肯定很顺畅！^^
我想啊，整个旅程最令人难忘的就是到Bako National Park一游了吧。不单单是旅程遥远，就连路程（攀山越岭，爬山涉水的路程）也很遥远啊。艰辛的路程更令人毕生难忘！！不过，真的是完全适合“team building”！！经过一段辛苦+炎热的山路，尽入眼帘的却是超级漂亮的风景！！那一刻的感受真的是难以形容。年轻+喜欢挑战的朋友不妨到此一游吧！我相信肯定难不到你们吧！！因为我们已经挑战过来了！！哈哈！！
常听说阿，砂佬越有好多美食哦，很可惜的是我们并没有尝尽。人生漫长，应该还有机会再到这美食天堂去尝尝吧！！有机会的，有机会回的。。。（自我催眠。。）嘻嘻。。
其实，要用一篇文章就把几天的旅程说尽还的确有点难，但这一切却深深烙我脑海里，我会把这美好回忆好好的保存着。。
朋友们，有机会再一起去旅行吧。。哈哈。。（虽然有时也会有意见分歧的时候，但有些时候也很享受和你们一起游玩的时光）。。哈哈。。。
其实，就算没有认识的朋友领路，自个儿也能在古晋闯得很好。古晋的路很简单走，不怎么容易在这儿迷路。最重要的是要知道每个地点的方向和所在之处。建议大家最好是要有一张比较完整的古晋地图，这样你的旅程肯定很顺畅！^^
我想啊，整个旅程最令人难忘的就是到Bako National Park一游了吧。不单单是旅程遥远，就连路程（攀山越岭，爬山涉水的路程）也很遥远啊。艰辛的路程更令人毕生难忘！！不过，真的是完全适合“team building”！！经过一段辛苦+炎热的山路，尽入眼帘的却是超级漂亮的风景！！那一刻的感受真的是难以形容。年轻+喜欢挑战的朋友不妨到此一游吧！我相信肯定难不到你们吧！！因为我们已经挑战过来了！！哈哈！！
常听说阿，砂佬越有好多美食哦，很可惜的是我们并没有尝尽。人生漫长，应该还有机会再到这美食天堂去尝尝吧！！有机会的，有机会回的。。。（自我催眠。。）嘻嘻。。
其实，要用一篇文章就把几天的旅程说尽还的确有点难，但这一切却深深烙我脑海里，我会把这美好回忆好好的保存着。。
朋友们，有机会再一起去旅行吧。。哈哈。。（虽然有时也会有意见分歧的时候，但有些时候也很享受和你们一起游玩的时光）。。哈哈。。。
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
槟城之旅
一个没有计划的旅行，背起简单的背包，就往着巴士站走去。人人都觉得我们超强的，哈哈，而我却觉得还好，这就是我想往的背包旅行了。虽然只是三人行，但是我相信，我们会是很好的组合，我们也能行出美好的旅程。。^^
一路向北，漫长的旅程，思绪不曾停止过。一直很遗憾，才刚刚建立起和系友之间的感情，又告一段落了。一直想要拥有的毕业旅行，也应该不可能会实现。
很庆幸的，整个旅程有贵人相助，有志伟同学带我们四处走走，到处吃好吃的，见识特别的，奇怪的槟岛！真的很感谢有他的出现，他的陪伴，让我们的旅程很顺利地进行着。。
也很感谢有老大的相助，一个特地从北海开车过来和我们相会，可是却又不会槟岛的路的老大。误打误撞的带我们去了很多旅游指南上所介绍的地方，完全搞笑！！虽然一路上被他亏，被他洗，但我还是比较喜欢这样的相处方式，打打闹闹的才有趣！！所以啊，老大，你千万不要变得正经样，我会很不习惯的哦~~我想说的是，老大啊，你的人还不错好，就是整天想尽办法整我而已。。哈哈。。
整个旅程，最让我遗憾的就是，没有一架好的照相机，没办法把这些美好的回忆用照片保存下来。所以啊，这个槟岛之旅还真的让我有一股冲动去买一架DSLR了！还好只是刹那间的冲动。。。
槟岛的确是个美丽的小岛，由蔚蓝的天空，有好玩的地方，有好吃的食物，但就是少了一些绿色的植物，清澈的海水，和白晰的沙滩。。。
有人告诉我说，槟岛的天空是最美的，但，对我而言，其实啊，只要是哪个地方有你我的回忆，那个地方的天空就是最美，最漂亮的~~~^^
Monday, May 23, 2011
回家咯。。。
终于，该去的地方都去完了，也是时候好好的休息了。。要回老家 摇着脚吃老米咯。。哈。。
还好之前哈比弟强逼我在去古晋前把整个房间收干净，不然我应该很难在短时间内整理好。
也还好，要搬回家的东西没有很多，又有屋友协助把东西搬上车，哈，这次回家的心情好不一样啊！！
好了，是时候，踏上归途了。去找了她，看到她一身湿，然后整辆车塞满了东西，嗯，应该是说塞满了回忆吧？！心里不禁又感叹了起来。时间真的不留情啊，想当初，我们傻傻的来到了这复杂的城市求学，混了三年，又带着复杂的心情回家了，啊，这就是人生吗？
一个愉快的午餐，为我们三年的大学生活正式划上完美句号。希望这并不是我们俩的句号啦，哈！再见啦，老友！就这样我们一人一辆车往南部开去了。
这一次，同样的还是一个人开车回家，但那感觉好不同哦。虽然还是会有小担心自己又会在哪儿迷路了，但是，所谓“狮子王永不求伴侣”嘛。。安啦。。我所说的是，想到她也同样地飞驰在南北大道，就会觉得，啊，其实我们并不孤单啊，我们都有互相的陪伴，朝着同个方向前进！！
一路上，唱机都静静的，听到的只是汽车飞驰在高速公路的声音。正好，可以让我静静的思考，深深的回忆。一路的想啊，想啊，想，越想就越精神，有些时候还会不禁笑了起来，哈哈，傻了。原来这三年以来我还过得不错快乐啊。嗯，还蛮享受这个人的时光啊！！
以后会是怎样还是个未知数呢！！自己到底想往那个方向呢？？不管怎样还是想暂时休息休息。。休息是为了走更长远的路，哈哈。。借口！！
还好之前哈比弟强逼我在去古晋前把整个房间收干净，不然我应该很难在短时间内整理好。
也还好，要搬回家的东西没有很多，又有屋友协助把东西搬上车，哈，这次回家的心情好不一样啊！！
好了，是时候，踏上归途了。去找了她，看到她一身湿，然后整辆车塞满了东西，嗯，应该是说塞满了回忆吧？！心里不禁又感叹了起来。时间真的不留情啊，想当初，我们傻傻的来到了这复杂的城市求学，混了三年，又带着复杂的心情回家了，啊，这就是人生吗？
一个愉快的午餐，为我们三年的大学生活正式划上完美句号。希望这并不是我们俩的句号啦，哈！再见啦，老友！就这样我们一人一辆车往南部开去了。
这一次，同样的还是一个人开车回家，但那感觉好不同哦。虽然还是会有小担心自己又会在哪儿迷路了，但是，所谓“狮子王永不求伴侣”嘛。。安啦。。我所说的是，想到她也同样地飞驰在南北大道，就会觉得，啊，其实我们并不孤单啊，我们都有互相的陪伴，朝着同个方向前进！！
一路上，唱机都静静的，听到的只是汽车飞驰在高速公路的声音。正好，可以让我静静的思考，深深的回忆。一路的想啊，想啊，想，越想就越精神，有些时候还会不禁笑了起来，哈哈，傻了。原来这三年以来我还过得不错快乐啊。嗯，还蛮享受这个人的时光啊！！
以后会是怎样还是个未知数呢！！自己到底想往那个方向呢？？不管怎样还是想暂时休息休息。。休息是为了走更长远的路，哈哈。。借口！！
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
终于。。
感叹时间的飞逝，转眼，三年匆匆地过去了。而我，兜兜转转的又要回到这个地方，一个让我觉得安心，窝心，能让我暂时忘却烦恼的小镇。
三年里，我，尝尽酸甜苦辣。从从前的那个分数一直高高在上，成绩单布满三角形的同学，变成了成绩单上只画满了圆形和方形的人。终于，我尝到了失败的滋味。原来，它是这样的味道，也只不过如此而已。一开始时，还会一直耿耿于怀，日子久了，也渐渐习惯了，也看开了，成绩好坏也决定不了你的一生，一切还是掌控在自己的手里。就这样，模模糊糊的，我过了三年。虽然成绩只是一般，但，总算，能顺利毕业。
三年里，人来人往，真的很感谢每一个在我生命中出现过的人物，哪怕只是一秒也好。
很感谢那些带给我欢笑的朋友，你感染了我，你让我也想把这份快乐与他人分享。
很感谢常常给我鼓励的朋友，你让我更有勇气面对每一天的挑战。
很感谢你，不管发生什么事也无时无刻支持我的朋友，就算是好久不见，你还是让我无时无刻感觉到你的存在。
很感谢那些常常与我斗嘴的毒蛇朋友，你让我的日子过得不那么苦闷。
很感谢那些常常给我脸色看的朋友，你让我学会如何去容忍，包容和沟通。
很感谢那些带给我烦恼的朋友，你让我学会如何去处理烦恼。
很感谢每一个你，你，和你，你们每一位都在我的生命中扮演了重要的角色。
人家常说，知己难寻，我很庆幸的找到了，而且并不止一个，是很多个。我在不同的阶段遇到的每一个特别的你。我真的很幸运也很幸福。这些日子里，有你陪我一起欢笑，一起做傻事，一起疯狂。也有你在我生气时在我身边默默地的等我气消。也有你让我感觉到读书的压力。无论如何，茫茫人海中能和你们相遇，这是缘分。我会好好收藏这份友谊，我会好好珍惜这份友情。
三年的大学生活终究告一段落了，这也象征着人生的另一个旅程碑就要开始了。虽然走了一条一开始并没有很喜欢的道路，但走着走着就走出了感情，我还是一样会朝着你往前走，往前冲！！
祝，同学们，前程似锦！！
三年里，我，尝尽酸甜苦辣。从从前的那个分数一直高高在上，成绩单布满三角形的同学，变成了成绩单上只画满了圆形和方形的人。终于，我尝到了失败的滋味。原来，它是这样的味道，也只不过如此而已。一开始时，还会一直耿耿于怀，日子久了，也渐渐习惯了，也看开了，成绩好坏也决定不了你的一生，一切还是掌控在自己的手里。就这样，模模糊糊的，我过了三年。虽然成绩只是一般，但，总算，能顺利毕业。
三年里，人来人往，真的很感谢每一个在我生命中出现过的人物，哪怕只是一秒也好。
很感谢那些带给我欢笑的朋友，你感染了我，你让我也想把这份快乐与他人分享。
很感谢常常给我鼓励的朋友，你让我更有勇气面对每一天的挑战。
很感谢你，不管发生什么事也无时无刻支持我的朋友，就算是好久不见，你还是让我无时无刻感觉到你的存在。
很感谢那些常常与我斗嘴的毒蛇朋友，你让我的日子过得不那么苦闷。
很感谢那些常常给我脸色看的朋友，你让我学会如何去容忍，包容和沟通。
很感谢那些带给我烦恼的朋友，你让我学会如何去处理烦恼。
很感谢每一个你，你，和你，你们每一位都在我的生命中扮演了重要的角色。
人家常说，知己难寻，我很庆幸的找到了，而且并不止一个，是很多个。我在不同的阶段遇到的每一个特别的你。我真的很幸运也很幸福。这些日子里，有你陪我一起欢笑，一起做傻事，一起疯狂。也有你在我生气时在我身边默默地的等我气消。也有你让我感觉到读书的压力。无论如何，茫茫人海中能和你们相遇，这是缘分。我会好好收藏这份友谊，我会好好珍惜这份友情。
三年的大学生活终究告一段落了，这也象征着人生的另一个旅程碑就要开始了。虽然走了一条一开始并没有很喜欢的道路，但走着走着就走出了感情，我还是一样会朝着你往前走，往前冲！！
祝，同学们，前程似锦！！
Thursday, January 21, 2010
what's wrong with me??
1st year 1st sem 的感觉又回来了。我，到底怎么了？
人的精神变革展览，不是我们一直祈求要办的吗？为什么当一切都成定局时，我却感到害怕？
人的精神变革展览，不是我们一直祈求要办的吗？为什么当一切都成定局时，我却感到害怕？
在这么紧凑的时间里却要完成一大堆的东西，真得好累。。好累。。
很多东西排山倒海的压着我，考试，tutorials,一系列的活动压倒我很辛苦，那喘不过气来的感觉可以不要来找我吗？
大家都以为我是因为办展览的关系，所以才会很累，很压力。。
其实并不是这样的。。
展览让我开阔眼界，让我接触到更多人，事，物。。
我的却很享受当中的过程，虽然只是短短的一个星期去筹备。。
我的真正压力的来源应该是来自自己。。
当一切东西一次过涌过来要我处理时，我真得好压力阿！！！
每当开会后回家，看到roomate(也是coursemate)一直很努力的再读书，很努力的在做tutorials,我更是压力。
要如何疏解压力呢？？我真的不知道。。
找人谈？？找谁谈好呢？？
从小到大，大人们，朋友们都一致认为我是一个很独立的人，开朗性格离不开我，就连我自己也这样认为。每次都是我去关心别人，去照顾别人，但谁来照顾我？坚强的人难道就没有脆弱的一面吗？？找人倾谈，有人会了解吗？我也想找人谈，但有谁是可以信任的吗？我真的很害怕那种人转人的信息。。
Saturday, June 13, 2009
活力青年营
要忙的总算忙完了。。。
曾经一直在问自己参与这次的生活营是不是错误的选择？？
是自己太得空才去参一脚的，自找苦吃？？
从一开始就看见他们吵吵闹闹的，到了最后还是在争，真的把我这个局外人吓倒了。。
谁是谁非我真的不知道，但我真的很想改变他们的处事态度。。。
他们有些不够经验，不够理智，不够责任感，不够果断，不合作，太傲慢，年纪太小，才造成这样的局面！！大家还不清楚自己的使命在哪？？
无论如何希望他们能从这次的生活营中成长。。
一直都不能释怀直到生活营的最后一天我都还在思考着。
可能是自己的要求太高了，从小到大参加及搞了无数的生活营，这一次可以算是最差的一次，每一个环节在别人眼中看来是进行到蛮顺利的，但对我来说却是相反的。
一直一直的在想，看到这样的场面，担当最后一天司仪的我真有想过随随便便的乱讲就算了。。
还好最后终于想通了，很多东西是不能拿来作比较的。。。
营员素质的问题是最头痛的问题，好的在课业方面真的一级棒，坏的就真的坏到不行。。
对这样的营员我一直存有偏见，对他们感到很反感，觉得他们无药可救了。
我知道我不应有这样的想法，人总有改变的一天，就看他们的造化了，是变好？还是变得更坏？
但真心希望他们能拥有真确的信仰，跟着指导，战胜自己，走向幸福的道路。。。
看到伟宏就是很好的例子，他的却变很多，我应该把从前的他从我的脑海抹走，从新认识他了。
虽然搞生活营的过程并不是很顺利，发生一大堆的争执，但青年部们的坚持，最终完成了生活营，为第八本部做出了很大的突破。第八本部的青年部们为广布踏出了第一部是值得鼓舞的。
所以，很庆幸的自己能参与，一起见证这历史性的一刻，至少我的假期并没有白过。。
也认识了一些可爱的朋友，一起并肩为广布作战的朋友。。
这两天一夜的活力青年营的顺利完成并不代表一切结束，然而却代表着第八本部的每一位为广布的开始。希望第八本部能通过对话去传达师匠的信息，把幸福的种子撒播出去。
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Genting Trip + Family Gathering
Again i went to genting highland...a place i were so common in....the day i had waited for so long since sem break started...coz i got no place to go n just stayed in the house everyday...so so so bored...everyone is travelling to pulau langkawi, pulau redang, n other places.
i were quite excited like a little child..haha...
anyway, this time would be different one...
i went to casino...wahahaha...n yet the police could not chase me out anymore...wahaha...
i never know that i look so young wor...or i look like
malay??
the police double checking my ID card n yet still dun believe that i ady reached the age to gamble..
wakakakaka....feeling so great!!!
how nice my trip???dun knw...
let the photos proof everything...hehe
my grandpa...he is going to celebrate his 80 birthday...
a nice place which i never been to though i visit to genting every year..
god bless my grandpa...
my cousin n my little bro....they are in the same age...
family photo...but some ppl are missing...hehe....dun knw where were they going....
wat were they doing???.......
my grandma (on the left) also joined us in the playground...
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
致Acad M的朋友们~~
真的感到很高兴能在Acad M活动。。
是你们让我从新回到御本尊的怀抱。。。
我忘了自己几时开始没有再出来学会活动。。
也不记得昔加末的学会有些什么活动。。
直到我进了马大。。。
sem 1 时，参了太多uni的活动。。
然后常常用为了uni活动很忙，拼命找借口推掉要出来学会活动的心。。
真对不起常常叫我出来活动的你们。。。
但现在已经了解到时间是由自己来安排的。。。
只要有那颗心在，什么事都能迎刃而解的。。。
御本尊会给以我们智慧去安排这一切。。。
为什么现在我选择在学会活动？
因为我真的发现到在学会活动和在外面的活动真的是很不一样。。
至少我们是拥有同一颗热忱的心去付出。。。
而并不是为了个人利益而争得面红耳赤。。。
所以我对自己说过我一定要把握每一次在学会活动的时候。。。
尽量去参与每一个学会活动。。。
kampar的交流会让我获益不浅。。。
至少我知道什么是立正安国论。。。只有用对话才能去改变。。。
创价学会的朋友们真是了不起。。。至少大家是心平气和的坐下来谈如何去改变，如何让这个社会更加和平。。如何让大家更加幸福。。
而不像外面的一些人为了权力而吵来吵去。。争个没完没了。。
我们有我们自己的使命。。。
我们要去完成自己的使命。。。
感谢御本尊让我回到您的怀抱。。。
我不会再与您分开。。
最后，要以大家分享一首歌“幸福的道路”。。
的却是一首很好听及很有意义的歌。。。
你陪着我成长，
好让我 看到属于我的光芒，
我永远不会忘记，请你相信，
所以我献身于广布，
要和你跟随着先生的脚步，
朝向前方的光芒，就是幸福的道路。
是你们让我从新回到御本尊的怀抱。。。
我忘了自己几时开始没有再出来学会活动。。
也不记得昔加末的学会有些什么活动。。
直到我进了马大。。。
sem 1 时，参了太多uni的活动。。
然后常常用为了uni活动很忙，拼命找借口推掉要出来学会活动的心。。
真对不起常常叫我出来活动的你们。。。
但现在已经了解到时间是由自己来安排的。。。
只要有那颗心在，什么事都能迎刃而解的。。。
御本尊会给以我们智慧去安排这一切。。。
为什么现在我选择在学会活动？
因为我真的发现到在学会活动和在外面的活动真的是很不一样。。
至少我们是拥有同一颗热忱的心去付出。。。
而并不是为了个人利益而争得面红耳赤。。。
所以我对自己说过我一定要把握每一次在学会活动的时候。。。
尽量去参与每一个学会活动。。。
kampar的交流会让我获益不浅。。。
至少我知道什么是立正安国论。。。只有用对话才能去改变。。。
创价学会的朋友们真是了不起。。。至少大家是心平气和的坐下来谈如何去改变，如何让这个社会更加和平。。如何让大家更加幸福。。
而不像外面的一些人为了权力而吵来吵去。。争个没完没了。。
我们有我们自己的使命。。。
我们要去完成自己的使命。。。
感谢御本尊让我回到您的怀抱。。。
我不会再与您分开。。
最后，要以大家分享一首歌“幸福的道路”。。
的却是一首很好听及很有意义的歌。。。
你陪着我成长，
好让我 看到属于我的光芒，
我永远不会忘记，请你相信，
所以我献身于广布，
要和你跟随着先生的脚步，
朝向前方的光芒，就是幸福的道路。
Saturday, April 25, 2009
sad...
i sat for my ODE paper today...
i dun knw wat had happened to me...
i can't answer the 3rd question???
but why there are only 3 questions??
and each question cost me 20 marks...
once i walked out BP..i knw i lost 20 marks dy...
i was so DOWN!!!
why i made my mind so complicated...??
such an easy question,but i dun knw how to do??
who controlled my mind???
frankly, i really worked hard for tis course..
since i failed the mid sem test...
i studied hard for it...
i did a lot of past year questions...
n i knw how to do the past year questions...
i read the notes over n over again...
i made my own notes...
but yet i knw i will fail tis course finally...
damn...
wat's wrong with me???
so,it was reasonable i felt so sad for the whole day...
i gv up to study the nex paper...
i played comp games...
i slept...
n i did sth crazy...
i walked to varsity lake at the dark nite...
i cried...
who can help me???
nobody....
thx to those who consoled me...n accompanied me...n listened to me...
i dun knw wat had happened to me...
i can't answer the 3rd question???
but why there are only 3 questions??
and each question cost me 20 marks...
once i walked out BP..i knw i lost 20 marks dy...
i was so DOWN!!!
why i made my mind so complicated...??
such an easy question,but i dun knw how to do??
who controlled my mind???
frankly, i really worked hard for tis course..
since i failed the mid sem test...
i studied hard for it...
i did a lot of past year questions...
n i knw how to do the past year questions...
i read the notes over n over again...
i made my own notes...
but yet i knw i will fail tis course finally...
damn...
wat's wrong with me???
so,it was reasonable i felt so sad for the whole day...
i gv up to study the nex paper...
i played comp games...
i slept...
n i did sth crazy...
i walked to varsity lake at the dark nite...
i cried...
who can help me???
nobody....
thx to those who consoled me...n accompanied me...n listened to me...
Monday, March 16, 2009
Happy 21st Birthday~~~
thanks meishi n yuemin to accompany me to go shopping today...
but pls laa..next time dun leave me alone at the shopping centre...
i really dun knw wat to do...wat i did was just walked..walked n walked in the shopping centre...
at nite...i was staying in the room alone...
lastly saier asked me to go for supper...
actually felt quite dissapointed when heard the birthday song...the birthday song which is sang to celebrate jun's birthday...
i really tot tat u all hd forgotten my birthday...
till i saw ah chai n keeyeong hold a little cake n sang birthday song to me...then i received gift...
i tot tat's all n it came to the end of my birthday celebration...
but no..i was totally wrong...it was just started...
oh my god...i was dumped in the kolam...
n they helped me to make up..n made me look so ugly..sob...
but yet they really made me had a wonderful + unforgetable birthday in my life...
really thanx...
n thanx for giving lots presents...
for me,it were not just gift..it mean a lots to me...
friendship last for ever...
but pls laa..next time dun leave me alone at the shopping centre...
i really dun knw wat to do...wat i did was just walked..walked n walked in the shopping centre...
at nite...i was staying in the room alone...
lastly saier asked me to go for supper...
actually felt quite dissapointed when heard the birthday song...the birthday song which is sang to celebrate jun's birthday...
i really tot tat u all hd forgotten my birthday...
till i saw ah chai n keeyeong hold a little cake n sang birthday song to me...then i received gift...
i tot tat's all n it came to the end of my birthday celebration...
but no..i was totally wrong...it was just started...
oh my god...i was dumped in the kolam...
n they helped me to make up..n made me look so ugly..sob...
but yet they really made me had a wonderful + unforgetable birthday in my life...
really thanx...
n thanx for giving lots presents...
for me,it were not just gift..it mean a lots to me...
friendship last for ever...
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Let's have a test....
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/aspx
Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
Sunday, March 1, 2009
Feeling after the most unique MKC~~
遗憾。。。带着期望。。却让我失望。。。
鼓，差一点就没得打。。真的伤心。。
谢谢学长学姐们在我要放弃的时候一直在我耳边鼓励。。我才有继续撑下去的勇气。。
说真的，我真的撑到很辛苦。。。
对。。表演过后真的很空虚。。脑袋真的是一片空白的。。
以为自己会哭的。。哈。。可是并没有。。
frankly,wat's a mix feeling i had after MKC..
yup..it cant be denied tat i regretted bcoz of the mishap..
i were thinking tat why raining all the time???if no rain,what will happen next?will the whole MKC in plan??everything will be better with the technical setting??there will be best ever perfomances with better lighting n audio??(sob)
but i knew no more 'if' here,it was a fate n we need to accept it..well..let bygone be bygone..it was not our false,it was just an unexpected mishap...to sum it all up,everyone did a great job yesterday nite!!!(i mean all seniors n juniors)....MKC really hoseh!!!
and i was so so sooooooooo touching yesterday...
i really could see the togetherness...not only among CC members but Zabahan...thx for helping us..thx for those alway offer himself to help to move things fr balai zaba to dewan nucleus..
thx a lots...and thx for other ethnic group 's frenz who gave me respond all the time while waiting for our frens to set up n prepare evrything for drama...at least u all let me knw tat i was not alone tat time...so pity me n serpin..i was hardly crack my mind to find out sum ideaS to entertain u all...THX A LOTS....
well..sth wanna mention here, my dear MKC director,WEI XIANG,i respect u..salute u..even though u did uncountable mistakes during the speech..but u still keep on talking..ur spirit,ur attitude,for sure,i respect u man...i was so touching by u man...almost cry at tat time lor...
abt ZHAO KE, i saw the great improvement in urself...well done..i knew u can do it...n 28th of Feb,MKC nite,u proved it to everyone...yes..good job man..be confident in urself laa....
abt the other perfomances, everyone was putting his/her effort to do the best he/she can...
SHIN YEN roomate,respect u also...continue to dance although u had ald injured...
dear mek,u afraid me...so worry abt u..
AMY n KAICHUR,take care of urself also rr...
abt the seniors, u all did a very good n efficient job man...helped us to do everything, till we dun knw wat should we do anymore...
XUE CHEN, u really has a incredible mind ler...huh~~
abt my coach,GUORONG n tutors,ROGER n TENGYI , u all are excellent!!!helped us to settle the drums perfomance...i knw u wont make us n urself disappointed de...great!!
for those i hvn mentioned,well done n good job man...
鼓，差一点就没得打。。真的伤心。。
谢谢学长学姐们在我要放弃的时候一直在我耳边鼓励。。我才有继续撑下去的勇气。。
说真的，我真的撑到很辛苦。。。
对。。表演过后真的很空虚。。脑袋真的是一片空白的。。
以为自己会哭的。。哈。。可是并没有。。
frankly,wat's a mix feeling i had after MKC..
yup..it cant be denied tat i regretted bcoz of the mishap..
i were thinking tat why raining all the time???if no rain,what will happen next?will the whole MKC in plan??everything will be better with the technical setting??there will be best ever perfomances with better lighting n audio??(sob)
but i knew no more 'if' here,it was a fate n we need to accept it..well..let bygone be bygone..it was not our false,it was just an unexpected mishap...to sum it all up,everyone did a great job yesterday nite!!!(i mean all seniors n juniors)....MKC really hoseh!!!
and i was so so sooooooooo touching yesterday...
i really could see the togetherness...not only among CC members but Zabahan...thx for helping us..thx for those alway offer himself to help to move things fr balai zaba to dewan nucleus..
thx a lots...and thx for other ethnic group 's frenz who gave me respond all the time while waiting for our frens to set up n prepare evrything for drama...at least u all let me knw tat i was not alone tat time...so pity me n serpin..i was hardly crack my mind to find out sum ideaS to entertain u all...THX A LOTS....
well..sth wanna mention here, my dear MKC director,WEI XIANG,i respect u..salute u..even though u did uncountable mistakes during the speech..but u still keep on talking..ur spirit,ur attitude,for sure,i respect u man...i was so touching by u man...almost cry at tat time lor...
abt ZHAO KE, i saw the great improvement in urself...well done..i knew u can do it...n 28th of Feb,MKC nite,u proved it to everyone...yes..good job man..be confident in urself laa....
abt the other perfomances, everyone was putting his/her effort to do the best he/she can...
SHIN YEN roomate,respect u also...continue to dance although u had ald injured...
dear mek,u afraid me...so worry abt u..
AMY n KAICHUR,take care of urself also rr...
abt the seniors, u all did a very good n efficient job man...helped us to do everything, till we dun knw wat should we do anymore...
XUE CHEN, u really has a incredible mind ler...huh~~
abt my coach,GUORONG n tutors,ROGER n TENGYI , u all are excellent!!!helped us to settle the drums perfomance...i knw u wont make us n urself disappointed de...great!!
for those i hvn mentioned,well done n good job man...
MKC ~~~~
28th of FEB (Saturday)
马大第七宿舍中华文化之夜，我们期待已久的日子终于来临了。
我答应了早上七点半搬鼓，八点练习，我做到了，可是你们为什么迟到？还是谢谢早到的朋友们(jean wei, kaiwen, jinxin n joan)。对不起，我对brothers们发脾气了，我知道大家都很累了，我不应该对你们发脾气，谢谢你们的体谅。
谢谢大家的帮忙让我们很快的把事情做好，然后开始练习。
大家的表现真的很好了，希望我们今晚能发挥得更好，鼓队加油，要相信我们的努力是值得的。
午餐后，肚子开始感到不舒服，我想可能是喝太多咖啡了再加上少睡觉。明知道自己不能喝咖啡，可是爱喝咖啡的我却一口气喝了十杯，人就是这么的犯贱。可恶的感觉，总是要作呕。
朋友们，想劝你们要学会好好照顾自己哦，因为在外病了没有人会关心你，照顾你，可怜你，同情你的。。。好好保重哦。。。
可是，有时候也会有好人来帮你一把的。谢谢你啦，思彬，慧慧和顺财。
呕过了，哭过了，感觉好多了。我可以继续做我还未完成的事了。
天气热到我无法睁开我的眼睛，讨厌阴晴不定的天气。
谢谢Roger tutor帮我解决搬鼓的事，这样我就少烦一件事了。
刚才那么热，为什么你那么快就变脸？
求你啦，给我一个好天气啦。
你毫不留情，就这样下起了雨，是因为我今天还没唱题吗？？
我不是爱哭包，我没哭，只是流泪而以啦。
刚才因为很紧张的搬鼓，差一点从白屋滚下来，还好思彬推了一把。谢啦。
好，我决定回房唱题和准备。
过后雨还是一直下，什么也做不到，只好傻傻的等雨停。
我相信雨一定会停，你不可能那么狠心让我们辛辛苦苦筹备了那么久的东西给毁了。
所以我一直保持晴朗的心情，相信天气也会跟着晴朗起来的。
果然你没有让我失望，雨真的是慢慢的停了。
大家的心也快乐了起来，笑容也开始挂在每个人的脸上。
大家开始抹干场地，人也陆陆续续的来了，大家也越来越就紧张了。
听着司仪欢迎贵宾的到来，掌声也跟着响起。那一刻是多么的感动。
听着筹委会主席致词时，我在想着一切的表演很快就要开始了，很快很快。。
伟翔的华语讲得不好，可是勇气可嘉，真是让人佩服，虽然讲得很好笑，可是听起来却是令人感动的。
开幕过后就到我们出场了，台下一阵喧哗，灯光亮到我看不见人海，很想看看到底有多少人来捧场咯。
过后就到扯铃表演，很想知道她们表演到如何，从来就没有真正的欣赏过每一个表演。
思彬出场过后就是到我出场了，突然听见思彬说了一句：请大家移到我们的dewan makan。
当时的我还不知道雨神已来访，我还真的在台上呆了一会儿才回过神来。
真是不敢相信眼前的一切，也不想接受。怎么办？
眼泪又要开始掉了，真不挣气。
我们要如何继续呢？鼓队怎么办？二十四节令鼓要怎么表演？我的脑一直都在想着鼓。。
一定要想个办法，不能让我们的努力白费的。
到了dewan nukleus, 我真的没有继续下去的勇气，还好有一直有seniors在鼓励着，谢啦，cc head叫我不要放弃打鼓，一定会想办法让我们打的。还有学谦的支持，我才会一直撑下去。还有思彬，谢谢你提醒了我当时不是泄气的时候，接下去要做的是把任务完成，把其余的表演呈现出来。
在他们setup 一切的时候，我们必须想办法撑场咯。
那短短的半个小时多是难熬的，我们真的是很懊恼，为什么我们在说话时都没有人在给反应呢？就连自己的seniors都是这样。还好有有一群支持我们的友族朋友们给与热烈的响应。谢谢你们，我真的很感动，感激不尽。
还有一些热心的友族朋友帮忙把东西从balai zaba搬到 dewan nukleus。谢啦。
很快的一切都setup好啦。我们的戏剧正式开始。
一切是多么的顺利，只是麦克风有些问题。
舞蹈，华乐，相声等一切都很好，大家辛苦了。
只是后台真是很乱，学谦真是了不起，少了你不知会发生什么事咯。
戏剧完毕过后就是二十四节令鼓，我连喘一口气都来不及就要开始打鼓。
当时真的很紧张，头脑还很乱，乱到不能集中精神，好害怕等等会打错害了大家。
最后逼自己冷静下来，集中和专心的打。
打完的那一刻，我的脑就是空白的。什么都没想了。
只看见3rd years seniors都在哭，是高兴？兴奋？还是感动？
我不知道。
2nd years seniors对我说：了不起，你们打得比我们还要好！！
我在想：真的吗？不要安慰我哦~~
过后发生什么事我真的管不了啦，只觉得：哈~~我们准备了五个月的中华文化之夜就在这雨夜画上了句号。我接下来该做什么呢？大家都在很开心的拍照，可我一点都提不起劲来，闷闷的坐着，结果我没拍到照留念，好后悔。为什么我当时会有那种感觉？很空白！很空虚！说不出个所以来。。。
泪又在开始流了。糟糕。
马大第七宿舍中华文化之夜，我们期待已久的日子终于来临了。
我答应了早上七点半搬鼓，八点练习，我做到了，可是你们为什么迟到？还是谢谢早到的朋友们(jean wei, kaiwen, jinxin n joan)。对不起，我对brothers们发脾气了，我知道大家都很累了，我不应该对你们发脾气，谢谢你们的体谅。
谢谢大家的帮忙让我们很快的把事情做好，然后开始练习。
大家的表现真的很好了，希望我们今晚能发挥得更好，鼓队加油，要相信我们的努力是值得的。
午餐后，肚子开始感到不舒服，我想可能是喝太多咖啡了再加上少睡觉。明知道自己不能喝咖啡，可是爱喝咖啡的我却一口气喝了十杯，人就是这么的犯贱。可恶的感觉，总是要作呕。
朋友们，想劝你们要学会好好照顾自己哦，因为在外病了没有人会关心你，照顾你，可怜你，同情你的。。。好好保重哦。。。
可是，有时候也会有好人来帮你一把的。谢谢你啦，思彬，慧慧和顺财。
呕过了，哭过了，感觉好多了。我可以继续做我还未完成的事了。
天气热到我无法睁开我的眼睛，讨厌阴晴不定的天气。
谢谢Roger tutor帮我解决搬鼓的事，这样我就少烦一件事了。
刚才那么热，为什么你那么快就变脸？
求你啦，给我一个好天气啦。
你毫不留情，就这样下起了雨，是因为我今天还没唱题吗？？
我不是爱哭包，我没哭，只是流泪而以啦。
刚才因为很紧张的搬鼓，差一点从白屋滚下来，还好思彬推了一把。谢啦。
好，我决定回房唱题和准备。
过后雨还是一直下，什么也做不到，只好傻傻的等雨停。
我相信雨一定会停，你不可能那么狠心让我们辛辛苦苦筹备了那么久的东西给毁了。
所以我一直保持晴朗的心情，相信天气也会跟着晴朗起来的。
果然你没有让我失望，雨真的是慢慢的停了。
大家的心也快乐了起来，笑容也开始挂在每个人的脸上。
大家开始抹干场地，人也陆陆续续的来了，大家也越来越就紧张了。
听着司仪欢迎贵宾的到来，掌声也跟着响起。那一刻是多么的感动。
听着筹委会主席致词时，我在想着一切的表演很快就要开始了，很快很快。。
伟翔的华语讲得不好，可是勇气可嘉，真是让人佩服，虽然讲得很好笑，可是听起来却是令人感动的。
开幕过后就到我们出场了，台下一阵喧哗，灯光亮到我看不见人海，很想看看到底有多少人来捧场咯。
过后就到扯铃表演，很想知道她们表演到如何，从来就没有真正的欣赏过每一个表演。
思彬出场过后就是到我出场了，突然听见思彬说了一句：请大家移到我们的dewan makan。
当时的我还不知道雨神已来访，我还真的在台上呆了一会儿才回过神来。
真是不敢相信眼前的一切，也不想接受。怎么办？
眼泪又要开始掉了，真不挣气。
我们要如何继续呢？鼓队怎么办？二十四节令鼓要怎么表演？我的脑一直都在想着鼓。。
一定要想个办法，不能让我们的努力白费的。
到了dewan nukleus, 我真的没有继续下去的勇气，还好有一直有seniors在鼓励着，谢啦，cc head叫我不要放弃打鼓，一定会想办法让我们打的。还有学谦的支持，我才会一直撑下去。还有思彬，谢谢你提醒了我当时不是泄气的时候，接下去要做的是把任务完成，把其余的表演呈现出来。
在他们setup 一切的时候，我们必须想办法撑场咯。
那短短的半个小时多是难熬的，我们真的是很懊恼，为什么我们在说话时都没有人在给反应呢？就连自己的seniors都是这样。还好有有一群支持我们的友族朋友们给与热烈的响应。谢谢你们，我真的很感动，感激不尽。
还有一些热心的友族朋友帮忙把东西从balai zaba搬到 dewan nukleus。谢啦。
很快的一切都setup好啦。我们的戏剧正式开始。
一切是多么的顺利，只是麦克风有些问题。
舞蹈，华乐，相声等一切都很好，大家辛苦了。
只是后台真是很乱，学谦真是了不起，少了你不知会发生什么事咯。
戏剧完毕过后就是二十四节令鼓，我连喘一口气都来不及就要开始打鼓。
当时真的很紧张，头脑还很乱，乱到不能集中精神，好害怕等等会打错害了大家。
最后逼自己冷静下来，集中和专心的打。
打完的那一刻，我的脑就是空白的。什么都没想了。
只看见3rd years seniors都在哭，是高兴？兴奋？还是感动？
我不知道。
2nd years seniors对我说：了不起，你们打得比我们还要好！！
我在想：真的吗？不要安慰我哦~~
过后发生什么事我真的管不了啦，只觉得：哈~~我们准备了五个月的中华文化之夜就在这雨夜画上了句号。我接下来该做什么呢？大家都在很开心的拍照，可我一点都提不起劲来，闷闷的坐着，结果我没拍到照留念，好后悔。为什么我当时会有那种感觉？很空白！很空虚！说不出个所以来。。。
泪又在开始流了。糟糕。
One day to go~~~~~
27th of FEB (FRIDAY)
oohhh...my hp rang at abt 730am...ooohhh...my dabian lian called me..shit...
i wanted to sleep lagi...
oohhh..somebody knocked my door...ooohhh...zhongwen came n woke me up....
oohhh..my hp rang again....ooohh...ivan called me....
ok..fine..i woke up..ok..i went to the practice..ok...
roger,i really dun wan to wake up de...but i hv no choice..everyone is missing me so much...
damn..it was raining laaa....
after i had my breakfast, we started to cut the clothes n settle our scarft n others....
since it was still raining..everyone went bec to their room...
except me, ahcai, ah fook, n serpin...still playing v the yellow stupid clothes...haa...
well..we planned to practice at 1230pm...
but sigh..i forgot today is friday..i really dun knw their sembahyang time for today is so long..
we only manage to practice once..be4 somebody stopped us bcoz of the curfew...
abt 230pm we continue our practice due to the good weather...
at 330pm..keeyong stopped us n asked us to go for the rehearsal...
everything is well running during the rehearsal...good job...
hope everyone could maintain laaa...jia you...
damn tired ald...same as yesterday...2am still got band practice lagi..
but i promised melissa n sangitha that i sure will go n support the MKI, hehe..so i sacrifice my sleeping time to support them ooo...
so funny..i dun understand their language at all...
haiz...i should learn other races' language de...
but their dances were so powerful n energetic...i felt like wanna dance together v them ald..
good job frenz...
at abt 1230pm...so sorry yaa..i was so tired ady...i cant stand anymore..i went to meishi's room n slept lor..till hooi hooi wake me up is already 2am lor...sorry for not helping to set up deco wor...
i dun knw i will over sleep wor..
after practice the huoyuanjia for 1.++ hour....they started to practice qinghuachi...
then i went to help ah kent to light up the lanterns lor...
damn...i got electric shock twice...
the first shock was a small matter...
the 2nd shock..ohh my god..my whole left arm lull...
but wat i can confirm is ah kent shout louder than me when he got electric shock..haha..
he only had the palm lull...but shout like the whole body kena electric shock...huh~~afraid me..
again..today i slept at 530am...i enjoyed the time with u all to set up the deco then...
haha...
suprisingly shinyen wake up ady to practice...
the dancers n 'cheling' were so hardworking....
salute u all...
oohhh...my hp rang at abt 730am...ooohhh...my dabian lian called me..shit...
i wanted to sleep lagi...
oohhh..somebody knocked my door...ooohhh...zhongwen came n woke me up....
oohhh..my hp rang again....ooohh...ivan called me....
ok..fine..i woke up..ok..i went to the practice..ok...
roger,i really dun wan to wake up de...but i hv no choice..everyone is missing me so much...
damn..it was raining laaa....
after i had my breakfast, we started to cut the clothes n settle our scarft n others....
since it was still raining..everyone went bec to their room...
except me, ahcai, ah fook, n serpin...still playing v the yellow stupid clothes...haa...
well..we planned to practice at 1230pm...
but sigh..i forgot today is friday..i really dun knw their sembahyang time for today is so long..
we only manage to practice once..be4 somebody stopped us bcoz of the curfew...
abt 230pm we continue our practice due to the good weather...
at 330pm..keeyong stopped us n asked us to go for the rehearsal...
everything is well running during the rehearsal...good job...
hope everyone could maintain laaa...jia you...
damn tired ald...same as yesterday...2am still got band practice lagi..
but i promised melissa n sangitha that i sure will go n support the MKI, hehe..so i sacrifice my sleeping time to support them ooo...
so funny..i dun understand their language at all...
haiz...i should learn other races' language de...
but their dances were so powerful n energetic...i felt like wanna dance together v them ald..
good job frenz...
at abt 1230pm...so sorry yaa..i was so tired ady...i cant stand anymore..i went to meishi's room n slept lor..till hooi hooi wake me up is already 2am lor...sorry for not helping to set up deco wor...
i dun knw i will over sleep wor..
after practice the huoyuanjia for 1.++ hour....they started to practice qinghuachi...
then i went to help ah kent to light up the lanterns lor...
damn...i got electric shock twice...
the first shock was a small matter...
the 2nd shock..ohh my god..my whole left arm lull...
but wat i can confirm is ah kent shout louder than me when he got electric shock..haha..
he only had the palm lull...but shout like the whole body kena electric shock...huh~~afraid me..
again..today i slept at 530am...i enjoyed the time with u all to set up the deco then...
haha...
suprisingly shinyen wake up ady to practice...
the dancers n 'cheling' were so hardworking....
salute u all...
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